#lonelyandalone

[loser-lady13]

I miss passion. I miss feeling loved and wanted and needed. I miss feeling anything at all. I hate this basic life. Basic sex. Basic kisses.

[kmunnangel]

#relationshipssuck

Day before thanksgiving. I hate holidays. My parents are due in sometime today. It'll be good to see them yet hard. My daughter is trying to make sure I have somewhere to go tomorrow. Daughter and SIL have to work today and tomorrow. My oldest son and his wife work nights and I don't know their plans. My youngest and his GF are going to her grandma's. That means I'll be alone. My parents will probably stay until lunch tomorrow, leave before it gets dark. I can't blame them, I don't like to drive when it gets dark either. So another holiday alone. SUCKS

[earfwormkillah]

Sad that even my mom knows how lonely I am. She texted me: "I know you're lonely, put a movie on in your room, don't fall asleep too early." It saddens me how true it is. (Entering a personal deep tangent: WARNING) I've never had the opportunity to bring someone home for my parents to meet. And I honestly believe that makes them more sad than it makes me. Because if I were a parent I would be thinking about my child.. Asking questions like: "there's got to be someone that loves my son/daughter as much as me." "What's stopping them to love someone or someone to love them?" Now clearly neither one of my siblings and I have been the dating type. Matter of fact none of us have brought anyone home and introduced them as our boyfriend/girlfriend. And at some point it kinda hurts a little. Because you see it on tv, movies with other cousins, but not you, not your family. And you awkwardly sit there wondering when it will be your turn. And you know you would like to date, but no one seems interested enough to give you a chance. And as much as I like to say answers like: "yeah, no I just don't have the time." "I'm really into my studies and my future." "I rather be single, less drama." Deep down I crave the drama and the problems and the roller coaster.. Cause it makes me feel human. Because the love you give to your family is way different than the love you give to your friends which is even more different than the love you give to that ONE other person and the intimacy of it, especially the intimacy you give, can't be expressed to family or friends and that's truly the aspect that I have longed for years now.. And will continue to long for.

[tainted-secrets]

Wanted

I just want someone to hold me tonight. Wrap me in their warmth and make me feel safe and loved. I don't want to be lonely. Just keep me in your touch. Make me feel like I'm wanted. I will return the favor and love you with everything I have.