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[powerovernothing]

And the ending always Comes at last Endings always Come too fast They come too fast And they pass too slow

I love you And that's all, it's really all I know (*~*)

Thanks for teaching me to care about Marvel again James Gunn~

[ascendance-if]

"Wait... don’t pull away… Not yet" - Prompt - Ian

- Focus, darling! - Ian says, giggling. - I'm trying... This is pretty difficult! - You say, focusing very intensely on a piece of metal. - You are underestimating the extent of your abilities... again. - Ian says, as he directs a quick gaze to the metal piece and it changes colors to red.

You sigh, exasperated. “Of course it’d be easy to you, the prodigy.” - You think. Ian chuckles. - Will you stop having an attitude on your thoughts and go back to the task at hand? - He says, raising an eyebrow and looking amused, as always. - You said you wouldn't read thoughts from my aura without asking... - You reply, giving him a sharp look. - Love! I didn’t read a thing from your aura… - He says, sincerely - But the way you were looking at me?? You either wanted to kill me or get it on with me - He pauses for a second, then smiles wolfishly - Oh… come to think of it... You shake your head at him and go back to focusing on the exercise. Manipulating the atomic structure of objects in a way that they stop absorbing a certain frequency of light and start reflecting it instead is such a foreign task for you, still. Especially when you have to use your thoughts to accomplish that. Ian stands by your side very patiently. He actually thinks it's a little early for you to succeed in this particular task, but you were very determined to try, and he thought that was cute, so he decided to stick around not to leave you by yourself during the many tries he knew it would take. Not that he'd tell you that last part explicitly. Without any hope of actually making it, you focus on the metal fragment one more time, picturing it yellow with all your might. To your surprise (and to Ian’s), the piece starts presenting yellow spots of color all around it. It isn’t the perfect result, sure, but it makes you jump. - I did it! Look!!! - You say, pointing at the metal bar. - I can see that... Have to say that I'm impressed. - He answers, offering you a wide, genuine smile. Barely able to contain your happiness, you suddenly embrace Ian in a tight hug. If there’s one thing you know about him by now is that he isn’t touch-averse, and you’re just too happy to contain yourself. Ian hugs you back, lifting you up in the air and spinning you around. He laughs soundly at your excitement. He puts you down softly, but you notice that Ian’s grip on you doesn’t loosen at that, not even in the slightest. When you try to break the hug, he holds you even closer to him, oddly.

The next time his lips part, his voice carries an emotion that wasn’t there before.

- Wait... Don’t pull away… Not yet. The behavior shift takes you by surprise. - Are you ok? - You ask, honestly. He chuckles weakly, and you can feel the soothing vibration of his fond laughter coming from his chest, now warmly pressed against yours. - I’m afraid I must admit something that won’t make a lot of sense to you right now. - He says. - Of course… What is it? - You ask, still unable to look at his face with the way he’s holding you tightly against himself. His voice is a whisper the next time he speaks. It leaves his lips with the speed and tone akin to a very private confession.

“I... really missed you"

[powerovernothing]

Hello everyone, Ponnie here~ I just wanted to drop in and make a little post in regards to my blog, and the lack of activity that it’s had over the last little while! Obviously, as you guys probably know, and have seen for the last month -- or even perhaps more than that, as I seemed to have lost track at some point during the oddity that was November -- it’s been pretty dead in terms of original content, and even the occasional reblogging session for quite some time now! I feel incredibly bad for such a thing, and wish to apologize for basically just disappearing for a bit... as well as to offer up a few questions for my lovely friends and followers!

Because while my creativity for full length stories based around Korbin and his brothers has managed to hit a nosedive for a while -- again, I’m blaming the winter season and that bloody November, as I have tons of ideas thought up and eager to be created, but the words are fighting against me and struggling to be brought to life -- that doesn’t mean I don’t want to continue uploading various other things while I search out where in all of Oblivion itself my spark of creativity may have ran off to when my back was turned! So, I am here to ask you a collection of questions, and if you guys could take the time to answer them in whatever possible way is easiest... well, it would really help out, and give me a good idea of what you guys would like to see in the coming weeks, and so on, whilst I try to get my creativity back to where it belongs!

Starting with number one: Would you guys enjoy it if I brought back the Incorrect Quotes based around the antics of Korbin and his brothers? I still have plenty of them stored away, and some new ones that I have been creating these last few days, and I am curious if you guys would enjoy it if I brought them back for many shits and many giggles!

Number two: Korbin’s world has become quite expansive over the course of this single year, and many new characters have made their way into said world with different roles, and different stories of their own! The list of different side characters is in it’s late 40s at this point, and I was curious to know if I created a proper list of the different characters that I have -- allies, enemies, those that are in between, and even the boy’s parents -- would you be interested in learning more about them in deeper detail? I haven’t actually been able to take the time to talk about them in depth outside of different Discord servers, and while I would really love to gush over them, I wish to see if there is enough curiosity for learning about them!

And then number three, which is basically just a combination question: I’ve been toying around with the idea of opening up bust commissions for a while now. They would be pretty simplistic, and done traditionally with my marker collection, and be around ten to fifteen dollars depending on the detail. Payment would most likely go through my Ko-Fi -- which I have had for a while now, yet haven’t actually done much with, ahaha -- and I am curious if anyone would be interested in such commissions! And while that is mostly the brunt of the question, do know that I’m always taking curious questions based around Korbin and his brothers, as well as suggestions, prompts, or just ideas in general! In terms of prompts, it may take a little longer considering my creativity lately -- but if it’s just questions about a certain thing, or if I reblog ask games, know that I’m always happy to receive as many messages in my askbox as possible!

And, with the above as I said, it may not just be based around Korbin, Lucien, and Martin soon! But we’ll see... in any case, that’s mostly the gist of everything I wanted to toss you guys’ way! If you could take the time out and answer them for me, I would dearly appreciate it!

Once again, I’m sorry for my disappearance, I apologize for the weird personal posts three times in a row, and yet I hope you guys will understand, and know that I’m doing my best to get back into the swing of things as soon as possible!

Thank you so much for reading through this -- if you read all of it -- and know that I love and cherish and every single one of you and look forward to what your opinions will be! But I’ve rambled on long enough, and now it’s time for affection!!

Tons of hugs and kisses from Mama Pon, and thanks again~! ♥

[powerovernothing]

Well, as of yesterday, I have officially been working on Korbin and his brother’s story for around three years now. And you know what? Just to take a moment to be somewhat gushy over something that means so much to me... it honestly doesn’t feel as though it’s been that long. It truly doesn’t.

Perhaps it’s a case of time flying when you’re passionate about a project, but in my opinion... it feels as though Korbin has always been with me in a sense. It seems as though he’s always been at my side, and always been there doing whatever he possibly can to inspire me, and keep me writing even when I wanted to call it quits out of my fear of failure.

It genuinely seems as though it was only yesterday that I was playing through Oblivion a second time with my Pops, and we decided to bring over our Knights of the Old Republic II character to the world of Cyrodiil just for shits and giggles. And then, before we knew what was happening, we were running off dialogue between us in the voices of Korbin and Lucien.

And, by the end of it all, once everything was said and done, I remember looking over at him, and basically saying that if he wasn’t going to write the story that we have just managed to shape throughout two hundred odd hours... I would. And well, you can see what happened afterwards, eh?

Something that started off as a joke between myself, and my Pops to just make the walking time between one area of Oblivion to the next... wound up being one of my all time favorite projects that I have ever put any heart into. And with everything that’s happened in my life over the last few years, for good, or for bad... and for the moments of in between, well, I’m thankful for Korbin for being there.

Yes, his story has changed drastically, and shaped itself far differently than how it started off, and then went one step beyond and became something that was so full of life, so full of love, so full of things that have inspired, not only myself, but others... and I’m thankful for it. I genuinely am.

I’m thankful for the characters that Todd Howard created -- no matter how much I may playfully criticize him --  the world in which they lived, and I am thankful to my Pops for creating a character on a whim, and then putting him in Oblivion, and basically giving me a chance to prove to myself that I was far better at creating a story, creating a small piece of something so large, than I would have ever thought myself capable of.

I’m thankful for Korbin, for Lucien, and Martin, and everyone else who has been apart of this journey. For my friends, for my own characters that I managed to create, for those who may not really understand the world, but read over my stories, and appreciate them all the same. It’s something that I hold onto when everything else in my life seems to spiral into madness. Whenever the world gets a bit too much -- I look back at Korbin, and I see a gift from my Pops that I will never not be beyond thankful for.

And I hope that he, as well as all of you, have enjoyed the journey so far with a oversized grey haired boy, and the risks he was willing to go for the sake of his family.

Will I continue on with his story as the days go by? Absolutely, and without a doubt. I already have countless ideas awaiting to be finalized as we speak. Will I continue to flesh it out, grow it to something even more massive, and possibly -- one day -- maybe even twist it to something I can hopefully publish without the worry of copyright?

Well, here’s hoping. But for now, for right now... I just want to say thank you. To my boys, to Todd Howard, to the amazing people that I have had a chance to meet because of this fandom, this story, this creation of mine. And I just want to say thank you to my Pops as well. On the third anniversary of this story...well, I surely have a lot of emotions, and a lot of things rushing through me for one reason, or another... but I don’t regret it.

I don’t regret anything, and I especially don’t regret Korbin. Sure, there’s been a few moments where I questioned what I was doing, and why I was pouring myself into an oversized fan fiction, but... his creation, his life, his journey. That was never a regret. And when I say that he is, most likely, one of the best creations I have ever done... well, I surely mean it from the bottom of my heart.

So here’s to another year passed, another batch of content created, and here’s to seeing where the road takes us both from here. Was this sappy? Was this over the top? Did I get entirely too emotional about things? Perhaps, and possibly so. But sometimes you just get sentimental for the things you create, and I do believe that I am allowed such a moment every now and again.

For those who care for Korbin, for his story, and for those who may have actually read this over without ridicule. Thank you so much. Thank you so much for always supporting us both, and for always wanting to see what will happen next. You guys are amazing, and I love you more than I could ever hope to put into words. You guys mean as much to me as Korbin does, and I hope you will always know that.

Hugs and kisses to you all, and here’s to another step forward with our heads held high! Thanks again from a sappy, tearful, slightly overly emotional Ponnie. You guys are the best~ 

[powerovernothing]

Hi ! I just wanted to let you know that I love and appreciate you a lot and I hope you are doing well ! - A friend >:3

Awww, ahaha! Well, aren’t you the most adorable, and sweetest little friendly Anon ever? Thank you ever so much for coming into my askbox and dropping me such a lovely little message! I assure you that when I first saw it, I instantly lit up and had the biggest smile spread over my face! Your words genuinely mean so much, and it’s so kind that you would take the time to send a bit of love my way, and check in on my well being! In fact, it means more than you know!

To answer your question, I’m doing pretty good, yes! As I am certain that others have obviously noticed over these last few days, or rather this last month, I took a little bit of an extended hiatus from my blog for a bit... not because I was bored, or that I was tired of reblogging, or creating things; far from it, in fact!

I just really needed to take a step back after my birthday came and went, as the first year anniversary of my dear Pop’s passing was quickly coming around the corner, and I needed a bit of time to collect myself, and keep myself from spiraling out because of my emotions. And yes, that’s not exactly the best kind of explanation, and it’s just a touch sad, but I didn’t want to write out my response to your words without answering your question!

But not to worry, my friend! I’m slowly beginning to feel a lot better, and clear headed, and I’m eager to get back into the habit of creating, and seeing where Korbin and his brother’s story -- as well as my many other tales -- will end up taking me as the months go on, and Korbin’s *own* anniversary, the third one in fact, is coming up as well in September!

So, I’m doing good, yes! And slowly getting better as the days go by! I have a full list of things that are very close to being complete -- some that are even ten percent away from being done as we speak -- and I am very excited to share them with you guys soon! So, once more... thank you, my dear lovely Anon! Thank you for coming into my askbox and sending me some love, thank you so much for your kindness, and thank you for checking in on me!

It’s deeply appreciated, just as you are, and you’ve really went and made my day just a touch brighter! And because of that, I just want to scoop you up in the biggest hug, and give you some of that affection as well! Tons of hugs and kisses coming in! I hope you’re prepared!

But seriously, you are awesome, and I hope your day is wonderful and grand as well! Thank you so much again! Have a great day, Anon! ♥

[powerovernothing]

Dear goodness, is it really July 15th already? Boy, oh boy, where has the time gone, and how on earth did that manage to creep up on me without me realizing it? Talk about a sneak attack of epic proportions and all, ahahah...

But, yes; honestly now. With all of the madness that has been happening in the world as of late, and how strange this year has been in general... honestly, it should have come to no one’s surprise -- especially my own -- that my birthday had somehow ended up catching me unawares, and giving me quite the surprise without me being ready for it in the slightest! However, even despite how awkward this may be for the most part, and despite how I’m not quite eager to turn from twenty seven to twenty eight, and what may actually mean... that doesn’t mean that I’m not going to sit here and absolutely forget about who else is having a birthday today! In fact, their birthday is a very special one, and one that I hope will be filled with tons of love, affection, appreciation, as well as cake and gifts! That is, of course, my dear sweet @jonathan-cranes-mistress-of-fear​! It’s her birthday as well, and even though this may have appeared out of nowhere, I’m not just going to forget my little tradition that I do every single year! So, if you guys could spare a moment, and head on over to her amazing blog, and maybe wish her a frighteningly good birthday spent with her beloved Lord of Fear, that would certainly be great! And I know that she would dearly appreciate hearing a kind word on such a day! Thank you all so much for doing as such, and now allow me to share a moment of softness and love for her just as well! My dear lovely sister, you know that I cherish, adore you, and appreciate your presence in my life more than you will ever really understand.

You are my sweetest friend, and someone who I look up to as each day passes by. You are talented, creative, kind hearted, spirited, and someone who grants me an incredible amount of joy, inspiration, and all around happiness whenever I see you at my side. It’s been so many years since we first met, but I have always cherished every single moment with you. Each time I think back on the fun we’ve had, the adventures, and the overall madness based around our favorite things... I simply smile, because those were moments well spent, in my opinion! So thank you, my dear. Thank you for always being here, and please know that I love you in so many ways, that it would honestly take me *hours* just to try and read out an entire list of such reasons!

In any case, I hope your birthday is honestly amazing. I hope you have a great day filled with smiles, happiness, tons of things that bring you joy, lots of gifts that warm your heart... and most of all, I hope that your day is filled with lots of Hroo Hraaing, lots of fear laced cake that you can attack your victims with, and tons of affection shared with your dearly beloved Scarecrow partaking in all of the fun!

So yeah! Happiest of happy birthdays, sis! May it be amazing, and filled with joy! And I hope you carry a smile on your face for weeks to come! And even though I might be gushy here and there, I still hope that my words gave you some warmth! Love you always, darling! And here comes the hugs and affection! I hope you’re ready for it~!

[powerovernothing]

Hi I just wanted to say that I admire you very very much and you are such a source of inspiration to me, I wish you the best in life and I hope you have a great day ! - 🐣

There are times where messages like this appear in my askbox without any prior warning, and they are absolutely the sweetest, most adorable little things that I have ever seen in my life, and because of those wonderful surprises, I often find myself just sitting back in my chair, staring at the screen in awe and shock, and quite the blank mind; truly not having any possible idea for what to say, or what to do in respond to such kindness, other than simply make lots of pleased, overjoyed gibberish... and this is most certainly one of those moments!

Dear sweet adorable Anon, you honestly have no idea what it means to know that I actually inspire you! I mean, I do my best in terms of creativity, and when it is related to Korbin and his brother’s story, but to know that someone is actually inspired by me? To know that someone admires me? That is something that is truly a wonderful sentiment, and one that warms my heart in ways I cannot even begin to describe! I am uncertain as to what I have done to have you admire me in such a way, as well as send me an amazing message full of love and adorable hearts, but let me simply say that I cherish it! I really cherish it, and I appreciate it, and I dearly appreciate you just as much! Thank you, my dear Anon friend! Thank you so much for taking the time to send a message such as this, and give me a wonderful smile with your precious words!

To know that I am able to make you feel those things, and to know that you wanted me to feel something as well... it is truly a wonderful feeling, and you are equally as wonderful. So thank you, lovely Anon! Thank you for the kind message, thank you for the smile that you gave me, and thank you for brightening my day up with your act of heartwarming! You are valued, and cherished, and I just want to give you the biggest hug!

I will do my best to continue and be someone worth your admiration, and appreciation, but for now! Lots of hugs, and kisses for you! Because you most certainly did indeed make my day! And I want to give some of that affection back to you!

Thank you again, lovely Anon friend! You are amazing~!