5:16 a.m. and I have decided to share more of my delulu as Warhammer 40k is still my main interest.
I’m not an expert of the lore, so if there is some mistake, please let me know or bear with me.
This shit is long. Be ready.
Also, this is mainly 🫵🏻xHorus but there’s something else in there.
SO…
An AU where Horus does not kill Sanguinius but beats him up SO BAD that eveyone thought he was dead; even Sangui himself thought he died, until the Emperor noticed a slight sign of being alive coming from him.
Secondly, the Emperor did not erase Horus from existence, but rather used his gigantic dick powers to banish him to… who-knows-where SO hard he doesn’t even know where he is, as he cannot feel his presence anymore.
Sanguinius immediately gets medical help, but that requires him to remain asleep like Lion quite a lot. And the Emperor, although weakened, is still quite functional, but he still needs to seat in the iron throne and let his labrats- I mean, sons, to do their jobs.
Once again, I don’t put much attention to details so fast forward to whatever Millenium.
Sanguinius has been restored, yet, he still carries some physical and psychological scarring from the battle. And it is quite difficult to keep the Imperium from watching his weakened and Half-dying father being represented as a “God”, but he tries… he truly does.
As the Imperium keeps Imperiuming, he reaches a planet, somewhere that —for some strange reason— doesn’t seem to be bothered by any conflict nor chaotic presence at all, one that actually almost goes under radar. (I’m pulling this from the ass of my ass, stay with me.)
He arrives to explore and see the small world has a well built civilization; some are amazed by Sanguinius, but not entirely surprised, it’s like… they have seen someone similar before…
As He peacefully meets the people and its culture, (even someone catches his eye) there is this strange feeling in his gut that eventually guides him to some fields. His hearts and soul drop instantly at the gigantic figure and well-known voice that hums while attending some work that involves his semi-god power.
Horus looks back and he swears he could be having the equivalent of a heart attack on both hearts.
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On his side, Horus was taken off the Chaos Drugs, yet his regret does not take off the weight of his sins.
When he wakes up, he’s in a place he does not recognize, not Terra, Not Cthonia. He’s found by the people in there, solders, warriors that have been at war for quite some time with monstrous beings from that very same world.
🫵🏻You are one of those warriors, and since you found him, you keep him.
You teach him about your home, how the war has been going on for decades and the only children that are born are breed for battle, your generation included.
Horus sees this as an opportunity, perhaps the Emperor won’t take long to search for his head and arrive any day now, he might as well try to make this place an offer as an apology while he gracefully accepts his destiny and punishment, even if it’s death.
Time goes on and of course he is going to be fighting along. He does not have his sons to support him on this, he has limited resources and lives to fight back with, Horus is also que equivalent to a tank of a man amongst them, it does bring back memories.
It does take a while to earn everyone’s trust, even yours, but you know him better than anyone there. At one point, when Horus wants to support and give feedback back on a strategic plan, many push him away, until you speak up.
“He fights with us, He bleeds with us… He’s one of us…”
Finally, everyone accepts to hear him out, pinning all the blame on you if something goes wrong. And in that moment… Horus already liked you, but now he seems touched deeply than usual.
Fast forward: YOU WIN!
Congratulations, you have successfully extinguished the creatures that were hunting your people! For the first time in perhaps what felt like forever, you feel at peace.
And Horus… He no longer sees this planet as a gift for the emperor.
As the civilization is building up, Horus remains by your side, for where else is he supposed to go? He can no longer see his path without you.
The population grows, now with full trust as the war no longer hunts them. You see your friends make their lives and families, and you are no different.
In your time of peace, Horus feels the guilt eating him alive and decides to tell you about what he did before arriving.
You’re no stranger to doing horrible things, but to survive, when you hear it, it just… it chills you to the bone.
There is some distance between you at first, you need a moment, quite a moment honestly. He gets it, all he requests is for you to not push him completely away.
You… to your surprise, you can’t seem to, so you both remain together even with the new wall in between.
Eventually, you see HIM, not was a Primarch, not a Demi-god from another world, but as a man… a prideful, kind and yet broken man… He might be rotten, but not to the core… for how else would he feel remorse for his actions and the wish to be better?
(I FOUND THAT PHRASE FROM A VISUAL NOVEL FROM TIKTOK AND I CANNOT FIND IT, IF SOMEBODY KNOWS, PLEASE LET ME KNOW)
There is a light in you that shows He doesn’t need to forget his actions, but learn to live with them and remember to be better.
You give him your hand in union to be by his side as long as life allows you to.
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And when Sanguinius arrives, the first thing you both notice is each other.
You see him, because the flashback of Horus arriving gets to you.
And He sees you, because you carry this strange aura that just makes him feel inclined to you, to trust you.
The Angel makes the mental note to keep an eye on you after he finishes exploring… and that’s when he notices the strange yet familiar presence in the fields.
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That’s it, let me know what you guys think and sorry for any mistakes.
im unbelieveably over this. i work 12 hrs i come home. i don't get asked how im doing. i dont get talked to. twice last night he stuck his head in the dog room to see where I was. thats it. didn't ask me anything. didnt share the bong with MY weed in it. he just makes himself dinner and gets on his headset. its my responsibility to remember that hes playing dnd. if I forget thats my fault. should I talk to him about this? yes. i have. many many times. the solution was a calender, that never happened. when he was done he just went to bed. didn't come to my room. didn't say anything. just went to bed. why am I here.
I dont even know what to feel anymore. ive already cried all I can. I'm not sad about the relationship anymore. I'm sad I'm wasting my time. I'm sad I believed he'd get his license or that he would repropose (he called off our engagement four years ago and then took it back. we never talked about and when I bring it up I get shit bc he made a mistake:( ) just to make sure i feel secure, we never got rings, we never talked about a wedding, we don't even talk about our fucking days. he only talks to me when he thinks about it and I'm SICK it. has been eight years since we started this and it is almost five too late.
I have so much love and so many thoughts and opinions. I want to share with someone and I thought that was him but im fucking terrified to tell him anything for fear of being called irrational, delusional, over emotional, overdramatic or too much.
ive been obsessed with him for so long but now it's just turned to resentment
Actually, on the tangent of Zane's system (more then likely, notably named, the Snow System), it is fairly small, and very supportive of each other.
The first host was pre-memory switch, from when his father first built him. He technically got lost after the switch got flipped, which then came another host: Zane
Zane finds himself the most human, even post amnesia the first time. Even now, he finds himself very human, and often gets dysphoria from not being human.
Post-switch brings back the first host, that embraces the robotic nature ("I know who I am!"). While he also goes by Zane, as at this point, no one is aware of it, he eventually develops his own identity, post titanium, as Titan (short for Titanium). Titan and Zane tended to co-host together when it was just the two of them, finding ways to help each other out. Especially when the body looked more human, Zane would assure Titan. And when the body became more robotic, Titan to Zane.
However, when Pixal resides in his body post titanium and forward, it causes a bit of confusion in his coding, thusly developing another. She often refers to herself as Pixie, in honor of Pixal, and is an introject of her. She handles a lot of computing within the body, but generally doesn't front. She's often a co-fronter to help with whoever is in front.
Those three had a pretty good system going on, helping each other out and taking over when needed. They didn't actually suspect of being a system.
That was, until Snake came along.
Snake Jaguar was such a heavy contrast compared to Zane, Titan, and Pixie, that even post-SoG, that the team started suspecting quickly of something going on. Allowing Pixal to run a diagnostic was more of a hassle than they intended. Titan, Pixie, and Zane all co-ed together that they didn't need a gatekeeper, nor did any of them have the power to gatekeep.
It's not that Snake was a bad guy, he was just stubborn. Similar to Zane, Snake found himself more human. Ans given he had the ability to swap forms from human to metallic- Well, you see the trouble that happened. He avidly denied being a nindroid, until Titan was able to push front, and allow the diagnostic to run.
That's when everyone found out about all five of them.
Wait, five?
That's right: Five.
Shortly after Snake, was an introject of Echo found. They had been there, 'disabled' since post-season 6. Jay said a few things, eventually triggering they're awakening, and everything got addressed. Well, mainly from Zane's body to the rest of the headmates. They discussed basic rules, of how everything works pre-Snake and Echo, and duties expected.
Titan and Zane are hosts, with Titan being a protector, and Zane is a symptom holder.
Pixie is a caretaker, mainly of mental and emotional levels, but she also takes care of the body's code.
Snake started as a misguided protector, given that the first thing he had to do was harm the team to protect them, but now serves as a trauma holder.
Echo is an archivist, able to store any sort of memories, no matter how many times amnesia hit.
Note: I haven't watched anything past season 10, which is why ice emperor isn't shown yet. I'll expand on if I have more/when I watch more
Another note: Not every system functions this way, or uses these terms. This goes solely based off of our system (Cardinal) and research. Also as if thinking of it for a nindroid being a system.
We have had our new 2nd shift supervisor being in charge for the last 2 weeks. This last week was his first week flying solo.
Our department head wandered onto the production floor for a change and decided to bother me...I mean inquire about a few things with me. I'm one of the few operators who doesn't run away when he's near. I'm also not a millennial.
So it went as follows. (I only sort of apologize for the length.)
G (East T Department Production Manager)
M (me, level II operator)
I'm at the end of my line checking finished parts.
G: So I've observed something...
M: (thinking to myself - please go away so I can do my job, of course you observed something, you have a crow's nest view of the whole department... Duh) Hi, sir. And what have you observed?
G: Well, you can stop checking parts while we talk. (So I stopped) I've noticed that 2nd shift's production is up, even above weekly targets which have nearly quadrupled in the last 8 months. Would you happen to have any idea why or how this is occurring?
M: Well, sir, we have been working 6 and 7 days to make what we've been told is target. Now you're saying that in 5 days we've hit a 7 day target? Am I correct in understanding what you said? (Mentally yes I know why this is, let's test the manager)
G: Yes, that's accurate. 2nd shift scrap is down, totals are up, fewer parts are being held for quality rechecks. So do you have any clue why?
M: (why did you pick me to bother, why not go ask P?) Well, sir, do you know about when this change occurred? (Yeah, probably 2 weeks ago)
G: Well it started with increased production goals just after plant shutdown. But really the numbers have changed greatest in the last 21 days.
M: Sir, I'm pretty sure you could ask anyone in this department this question and get a similar answer. But it's having a good leader.
G: What do you mean?
M: (mother of God either this is a test or you're a fucking idiot, it's probably both) Well, I'm not trying to speak I'll of anyone, but you saw the biggest change starting the day P took over as our supervisor. The change boils down to the difference between a good leader and a good supervisor.
G: But all supervisors are good leaders.
M: (how deeply do I want to dig this hole for myself) Sir, I kindly disagree. Yes, there are supervisors who are good leaders, but not all good supervisors can be good leaders. Please let me finish (as he goes to interrupt me). P taking over changed the outcome of each day because P is a good leader and right now, most of us would jump at the chance to make him proud to be our supervisor. P was 3 years a line operator, 7 years a set up tech, and now he's our leader. Most of us probably don't see him just as a supervisor because he's not just that. He's not just supervising us, he's leading us. He's leading by example. He's a good leader who is also a supervisor.
G: But nothing has changed. Just the person at the desk.
M: That's my point. It's the change in 'command' structure. P has been one of us as operators. He knows how frustrating these machines can be. He's fixed them for 7 years. Again, I'm not trying to come off as mean, but there's a difference. And it shows. J was an outside hire and never ran lines, never did setup. He knew next to nothing about half of the equipment. He'd rather goof around than listen to someone having a problem. He'd never be available to help his team do better.
I'll give you two examples from my perspective.
You don't want me running these two lines. Because I'm not speedy like B or C. But you know we're shorthanded so you're tolerating me being in these 2 lines. I've had 45 minutes of training on 6 by 3 different people in 3 different occasions and 3 different parts. I'm still nowhere near comfortable with that line. And it needs a constant observer, we don't have one. Which is why you get what I can eek out in 8 hours. As I self teach. If I have an issue, I can go to P who leaves the desk to come help me and then teaches me what he did to fix the problem. I've learned more in 3-5 minute fixes from him than I did from all 45 from 3 other people.
G: OK, go on.
M: Second. Earlier this week I had a bad night on 6 I lost track of time and I had both of these tables full to check, mark, and basket. I had a full out table on 6 that needed to be carefully checked before carting. I had all that and 10 minutes to get numbers and turn in paperwork. J was still doing the end of day supervisor sign offs. P heard my issue. He asked a coworker to empty 6 and check the parts. I was finishing paperwork and went to go dump this line and I found both tables cleared. I asked E if she did it. She said she didn't know how. She told me P, my supervisor did it. P saw an operator having a problem and he solved it. He didn't need to do all of it, he didn't need to do any of it. But he chose to, leading by example.
Now at the end of the night, whoever is done first walks lines and offers to help others who need a hand. Yes, the person changed, but so did the job. If we need help P gets us help or comes to try to fix it himself and it shows.
Good leaders lead. Lead by example. Lead the way. Lead their team. Good supervisors observe, oversee and supervise. P is a good leader. K is a good leader even before he got TL promotion. J is a good superving TL, he's not a leader. Not like P & K are.
G: That's a very astute and detailed observation.
M: You asked. I answered the way I felt best answered your question.
G: Apparently I need to spend more time on the floor.
M: It would let you see things as your staff sees them. You hounding J about my line being redlit doesn't seem like you read the hourly sheets. Do you know that this line has been breaking drills, inserts in Op1 and 3 every 75 cuts? It's in my hourlies. Just because you see a redlit line doesn't mean that the operator isn't trying to keep the line running. You see from your office lines idle, you aren't seeing why.
G: Thank you for speaking with me, get back to work. Oh and make sure you go talk to P at the end of shift.
M: Uh. OK sir. (Oh great you stepped in it...) I waited all shift and went to talk to P at the end of shift.
P: I need to talk to you after everyone else clocks out...
M: Uh. um. OK. I guess.
P: It's nothing bad.
M: OK
Everyone else bee lines for the clock.
M: You needed to see me boss?
P: Whatever you said to G earlier had him on the phone to me as soon as he got back upstairs. No. That's not a bad thing. (He hands me and envelope with my name on it.)
Me: I'm confused.
P: Go clock out and open it before you leave.
M: (cloak and dagger bs is not good for my anxiety) OK, see you tomorrow P.
P: grinning, you too.
I go to clock out, get in the hallway to the exit and open the envelope. Out falls a gift card and a 2 sheet folded paper.
The letter bore my name and said that I was being recognized for my honesty, my diligence and for the education I gave my department head.
The second sheet was a certificate bearing my name and the title Level III operator. Along with the words $0.50/hr pay raise. Signed by both G and P.
Apparently G was confused because I'd never gotten moved to lvl III even though I had been with the company more than a year and had mastered the hardest line in our department. J never submitted the request. It was filled out sitting in the drafts of the department supervisor email since thanksgiving.
G called P to ask why I hadn't gotten a level promotion since august. P inquired and fixed the oversight. G also gave P a gift card too. For leading his team well.
My gift card was because I taught an old dog a new trick.
G was in on Saturday mid shift and was walking the lines watching his operators and his equipment. 1st shift wasn't happy he was there, but apparently some minor issues got fixed quickly because it was stupid to ignore the problems.
Lead. By. Example.
Don't push from behind. Pull your team up. Make them better by choice.
Today I have learnt that pushing myself too far when anxiety is concerned is not always the right thing to do. I know what I can do and what I can't/shouldn't do. I know that I need to push myself but I need to pick and choose why situations I can push myself into and what I cannot. Today has been really hard and I'm glad it's over and I can go and sleep.
Okay, I do want to explain the Bukowski bloodline, because it's kind of interesting to me. It is a little long, sorry about that.
Dmitri was born a Bukowski, had a son with the Bukowski last name, married to Vinschpinsilstien, but upon divorce, he changed his last name to Petrov (mother's maiden name)
His son, irresponsibly, had a child at around the age of 18 with his girlfriend. His last name was Bukowski, while his girlfriend's was Mann. The first child gained the Mann last name. They married, and his wife took the Bukowski last name, causing their next two children to become Bukowski's.
Right Henderson Mann was born first, when his parents were 18 and 19 (father-mother respectively). Dmitri helped raise Right for the first 5 years in Canada, before he went off to public school.
Konrad Casey and Calvin Kay Bukowski were born when their parents were 20 and 21 (father-mother respectively). A fight happened with the parents, causing each parent to take a twin with them.
Konrad went up with his father to his great-grandfather's place (father's side) in Wyoming, where he got used to the cold, when he was 1.
Calvin went down with his mother to his grandmother's place (mother's side) in Arizona, where he got used to the heat when he was 1.
About 6 months went by, the parents got their shit together, and moved back to Canada with Dmitri. Right now, the twins are 2 while Right is 4. A year later, the parents took their children (twins 3 and Right 5) to a place in California.
When the twins turned 11 to 12, something happened with Calvin in the hospital, Right (13-14) nearly ending up in Juvy, and Konrad being right there with him, nearly in Juvy.
Dmitri took it into his own hands to travel from Canada (now the warden at The Wall) and fight for custody of his grandchildren. He won the case, completely cut the parents off (Yes, he cut his own son off), and brought the children to Canada with him.
He gave them the option of changing their last names, but the three declined it, but made sure Dmitri promised to keep them out of danger of their parents.
Trust me when I say Dmitri owned up to that promise.
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Fast-forward: Right had to hide his mixed accent of Russian-Canadian-California and opted for a rough Scottish, and did it well. Dmitri didn't blame him or judge him for it. In all honesty, Dmitri didn't blame or judge anything they wanted to be. While he knew Right wanted to be a criminal, he still taught the three of them self defense and how to shoot a gun and wield a sword. With the help of Grigori and his, at the time, wife, Dr. Vinschpinsilstien.
Dmitri encouraged Right to not just harm ruthlessly, but if he had to, make it worth it and think it through. He encouraged the twins to pursue what they wanted, and while they couldn't fully, they're still satisfied in the army.
Dmitri is proud of them, and makes sure to tell them when he can (birthday calls, surprise visits, anything like that)
Now, I'm not explaining the entire family, just the powers. You may be wondering WHY it's so much? Scandals! Good LORD.
Okay, here's the full tree right here, underneath goes in depth, generation by generation, and explaining their powers and magic. It DOES give names. Sorry if it gets a little confusing.
WARNING: Mental Magic is NOT a good thing, in these cases. The primary creation of them was for abuse. It's less of magic and more of a curse. Read at your own risk. It will be sectioned, and it can be skipped.
Lovely, okay.
Music Magic: this concept is by @bluetorchsky , using music to conduct magic around. There are two types listened, this being 'Instrument' and 'Voice'. Specifically, Memory and Harley, Damen's Great-Grandparents from the woods, have these two seperate. Voice music magic is similar to a sirens voice, while instrument magic uses instruments to achieve the samething!
Faeriy: While Jill wasn't a full fea folk, her abilities allowed her to talk more with plants and animals directly, to the point of being called a fea.
Earthbender: Now, I think we know what this means. Full blown earth magic and earth bending to the user's will.
Mental Magic. Now, if you can tell, there are three main types: Voice, Manipulation, and Emotion. Each of these have a different effect.
Voice: Similar to a siren, the user uses their voice to conduct people to what they want to do. But, unlike music magic, it's considered mental as the victim, once listening once, cannot unhear their voice and is stuck under a spell. Their voice will be heard in the victims mind, telling them what do to, even if they're miles away. It gets weaker the father apart.
Manipulation: Breaking down mental walls, this type mainly uses body motions to fully put someone under their magic control. Batting eyes, fake promises and words, fake emotions- It's a whole bombshell of BAD. Once trapped under their magic, it's almost impossible to get out.
Enotion: This one is the weakest, as it relies on the fragile mental and emotional state if someone. If they can be broken easily, your stuck. Once you're stuck, it's.. Hard, but not impossible to break out. Most that use emotional mental magic learn that getting the person to soloy rely on them got a better results.
Now, there are also combinations of them. The effects only get stronger, and the ways they get in to someone's mind only expands. The strongest being a combination of them all at once.
6th Sense with animals is different to the faeriy's abilities. They cannot hear plants and animals, but their instincts around them are MUCH stronger. They know when somethings wrong and when somethings not.
Earth Faeriy is a combination of Earthbending and Faeriy just as that.
Now, if you notice: Music (Voice - Bad). Kristen did NOT use her magic voice for good, like people expect.
And now, for the names:
Liam is Kyro's biological name
Kiro is said 'Hero' with a K
Chee is their younger brother
Xavier is Damen's older brother, who's now named 'Valley'
Rodriguez III is Damen's biological name
Marshall is Damen's younger brother
Chicago is another half-brother of Damen, but he is not known.
All of the children listed were born with a natural immunity, aside from: Damen and Marshall
Marshall HAS immunity, but it's not the only thing he's born with.
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Okay, I'm done rambling. If you need any clarification, do not be afraid to ask.
