#longassrant

[oujikou]

Out of hand rant, but I don't care

So I really don't get you. You don't try to contact me when serious things happen. You basically leave me in the shadows. I sit around like a fool waiting for your text on our plans. I still put you out there like a god, but why should I up until this point? Every fucking week, I am let down once. If I am not let down by you at least once a week, then something ain't right. That is downright sad, and not even needed. I know yesterday was beyond your control because of your useless bitchy grandmother. I know you love her, and she is your grandma, but I have no respect to the bitch what-so-ever. I don't care if I was out of line to say that you should choose me over your flesh, and blood. A grandmother should want you to grow, be a cheerful person, and not constantly hog you up due to her incompetent ways of living. Why the fuck does she have to keep her mental illness pills up on counters where she can't reach?! So she can beg you, and your father to get it for her?! She is such a self centered bitch, and YES I will call her by her fucking name. I don't care if it is disrespectful because at the end of the day, she isn't my grandmother, and she NEVER will be. I would be too embarrassed to have such a worthless woman as a relative. Yes, I am out of hand when I told you I really don't give a rat's ass if she's old, has little to live, and has some serious death treat condition. I frankly don't care. I wish she wasn't around. Yes! I said it. She is such a waste of space. Ain't no one gonna tell me I got to respect no elderly if they don't respect me. No one should use that sorry as moral excuse to me cuz I ain't normal, and moral. I am me, and that is how everyone should be. Age should not define a level of respect. She ain't my family. Did she wipe my ass as I was growing? No! Did she benefit my financial crisis or choices? No! So why should I give someone whom I know does not like me from the get-go? I don't see any logic to that. I love elderly people, but I fucking can't stand that old hag. She basically judged me from the beginning. She kept you from us hanging out because she wants to treat her fucking grandson as if he's her boyfriend. Get a fucking life, or make use of the life expectancy you have. Stop being such a negative disgusting old bitch, and start living life. Quit dragging everyone down. I have every right to be fuming. My grandmother which has passed was not as needy, and bitchy. She couldn't walk, she couldn't tend to herself, she couldn't speak great English, and she had a death condition too. She also stayed at a nursing home, and when she wasn't..she NEVER once held me back from living my life! She wanted me to be happy. She wasn't such a waste of human existence to try to spread her negativity. She wanted her grandchild lad to GROW, and be HAPPY which your fucking useless cunt can't seem to give you. I am also highly pissed at you for always oversleeping, always not telling me if plans are going to be cancel. Why are you sleeping all the fucking time?! It is not as if you are going to school, and you recently quitted your job. You have no fucking excuse. If I can wake up at 6 to go to class, and work until 9:30, AND make time for you in between, then you can too. If I can live off of four hours of sleep all the time to spend the extra time with you, then you can't too. I don't get why your body won't wake up on days we have plans. My body doesn't even need an alarm. If I'm hype, I wake on my own. I don't need an alarm, I don't need you spamming me like crazy (like how I do you). You are a grown ass man, so fucking act like one. I feel like your mother having to always constantly tell you the same shit over, and over. "Oh oh change doesn't happen over night." You keep saying. It's been fucking months up until this point! It don't happen overnight, but if you have the willpower to change, it can happen within a month or two! Don't give me such fucking retarded gay ass excuses. Don't you dare ask why I like you or that someone like me would never choose someone like you. If I am so much better, then fucking put the needed effort. I don't ask for much. I don't care if you don't buy me things. All I act for is decent communication. I don't need you to act like the best person in the world when we are physically together. I want you to act like that we were are indirectly together. How the fuck do you not get it you little kid! Grow the hell up. You know how disappointing it is to give up a lot for you?! I gave up things hoping you would give me what I was searching for. I wasn't happy with what I got. I never had someone to fully understand me. You don't even though I wished you did. Maybe I am not meant to be happy. I know I did a lot of wrong in my past, and I fully admit to my wrongdoings. I know I lied, and wasn't the best boyfriend to my past lovers. I just couldn't. I couldn't find a sense of agreement. You, and I connected so well, and I didn't even like men like that. I wanted to be the boyfriend that was calm, and collective. I wanted to make my girlfriends happy. I miss that. Now I legit feel like I am the girlfriend having to lecture her boyfriend. It isn't built in me to be the emotional one. It pisses me off that I've became such a worthless girl. I just can't stand it. Maybe I am meant to have a girlfriend or a gay man on top of it. Something about this is just so displeasing. I feel so weird posting this to the public eye, but it's the truth. I know you won't see this luckily. I just can't stand your ratty old bitch, and your lack of change. I don't know what I will do at this point. I got to slowly adjust to disappointment every week. I got to expect disappointment. I need to cut ties with my emotional self. I am tired of these tears. I am tired of thinking of my past. It's not healthy at all. Luckily I decided to go to work tomorrow. If I had given up a day of work, and you blew me off for the third day, then I would have been pissed off even more. I don't even know what to say to you. You may have replied after hours later, but I don't care. I don't believe in ignoring, but I just don't know what to say to you. Seriously, pick up your fucking game or you will lose the number one person who was the best to you, and deals with your fucking late comings, and your brainless excuses. You really don't deserve someone like me. You really don't. I ain't egotistic, but I'll be the best thing that will ever happen to you. Also if I happen to read this to you one day, you come across this, I am not speaking out of anger. I am speaking the truth. I am sick of your shit, and I will not only upload the "good" times you've given me. You've given me more pain then happiness at this point. This is the honest truth. I won't talk superb about you even if you show me off to your friends or talk good of me. Because hey, there was no flaw in me. I gave you 110% of me in all the ways I had imagine. You ungrateful shit. I really despise you, and your cunt right now. I won't make indirect threats, but I hope she will quit being a interference with your life.

[oh--honey]

Unpopular Opinion

Honestly I am so annoyed seeing all these posts and hate towards the show and its creators. I thought this last episode was brilliant with raw and honest scenes between the characters.  Just because something such as rape is shown on television does not mean it is all of a sudden okay to do. There have been more people killed on this show than I can remember and last time I checked killing isn’t so great either so where were y'all these last few seasons when that was happening? And I get that you’re mad about Lexa and Lincoln because believe me I was seriously upset too and cried like a sobbing baby (especially for Lexa because of how emotional that scene was). But they are characters that are part of the greater story. Aside from the fact that the actors stated they could not continue with the show, their deaths don’t need further explanation. It’s a part of the story and if every character survived near-death experiences then what’s the point? The story would lose all depth and the battles would mean nothing is at stake because through some bullshit miracle every damn character will survive. There are tons of other characters in this show that have put in the time and effort, INCLUDING Lexa and Lincoln, as well the creators to whom it isn’t respectful or fair the bashing they have been receiving. If this show is of no interest to you any longer, stop watching. It’s as simple as that. 

[brooklynsafrica]

Please Excuse My Rant...

People really do amaze me sometimes. Being on Twitter is like entering an impromptu psychological experiment. You have your posers, your liars, your jokesters, your over-doers and the small group of people with common sense.

Reading their tweets gives you a sense of their personality, at least the persona they exhibit to the Twitter world and depending on the time of day, it’s funny or just aggravating as hell. You never realize how much you could dislike people you didn’t even know until you create a Twitter page and follow people.

I’m just an observer. I laugh, I cringe and I roll my eyes at everything I see but every once in a while, I get thoroughly irritated. The ironic thing is the people who make you laugh often are the same people who irritate the hell out of you. When it comes to judging character, you often have to go by what you see and it never occurs to you that this person could quite possibly be the stupidest, most disrespectful person you’ve ever heard from.

The level of craziness you see on Twitter can leave you utterly flabbergasted and I’m one of those people who have to either write or say what I’m thinking or else it will drive me crazy. As most people do, you tend to follow people you have the most in common with; whether it be favorite artists or just similar philosophies. It’s easy to become comfortable with certain people’s sense of humors and opinions but all it takes is one dumb ass statement to ruin that comfort and make you think, “Why the hell did I follow you in the first place?”

Sometimes I feel like I’m rehashing old topics but it’s difficult to ignore the constant reappearance of the same stupidity. I have a pet peeve of people who aren’t honest and don’t commit to their opinions. It’s nothing wrong with being biased or liking one person more than the other. I think the issue is when you pretend to be neutral knowing that you are not. 

What’s the point of pretending to love equally when your attitudes, words, and opinions clearly demonstrate the opposite. I am not one to impose my standards and ideas onto other people but I have no problem freely expressing whatever issues I have. For me, nobody really has to give a fuck. Nobody has to agree with me but a lack of support won’t stop me from being honest.

Now that I’m done with general shit, let’s get specific. All these so-called Chris Brown fans who emotionally nail this nigga to the cross get on my last goddamn nerves. Ever since him and Rihanna broke up and even a while before, everything he do is wrong. From his hair and his face to the way he walks, it’s wrong and open for malicious words that are horribly disguised as jokes. These niggas know damn well none of the shit they say is funny. It irritates me that they think it’s ok to say he does drugs, fucks everything that moves and whatever else crazy ass reach they can come up with but as soon as someone who is clearly not a fan says it they want to jump to his defense. Please explain to me what is the difference between them doing it and someone else doing it? Don’t worry, I’ll wait….

There is no difference and at the end of the day, most of them are only for Chris when it’s popular and against Chris when it’s not. None of them have a mind of their own or any sense of decency and respect. He is a human who, no matter what his 24-YEAR-OLD GROWN ASS does, deserves respect and the ability to make his own decisions without being attacked for them. This nigga can’t even breathe, favorite a tweet, laugh or smile without somebody having a problem with it. Yet the people who attack him be the same muthafuckas ready to claim how much they love him. If that’s how you love somebody, Bitch please hate my ass! In all honesty, there is a thin line between tough love and disrespect. When you love or care about somebody you don’t put them down or attack them like the shit is funny.

People are so quick to ditch him just because he’s going through something but as soon as he does something successful and good noteworthy, they want to claim it. Bitch, you didn’t buy any albums or singles! How could you? You were too busy insinuating he was a druggy or investigating which vagina he’s sticking his dick in. People spend more time focused on shit that isn’t their business or responsibility than what is actually a part of their job description. You’re a fan. Buy some music, watch a video and SHUT THE FUCK UP! You want to lust after him, cool. You want to make little inconsequential jokes, fine. But don’t think that gives you license to curse him out, disrespect him and hurt his feelings.

And all this fuckery in the name of love and neutrality? You think no one notices how fake you are and how quick you are to drag him for blood at just a hint of him doing something you don’t like? Do people really think they are that slick? Everything isn’t funny and people often go too far. Just because somebody doesn’t say anything, doesn’t mean they don’t notice. 

[glad-all-over]

Why can't things in my life just work out?!

And why the hell am i so forgiving?!

Its not that i want to be?

I guess i just grew up believing it was the "right" thing to always do.

I guess that was just a random thought..

What i really wanted to rant about is that,

my life was..pretty good okay.

For the moment.

I mean hello?! Its fucking summer!

Chilling with my friends..snow cones, swimming, just living it up.

Then BAM! Outta no where the ex comes back.

Oh shit Taylor.

Yes i missed him. Like, you don't even know.

But it was ME who screwed things up the first time..i took him for granted.

BUT I GOT HIM BACK! :D YES YES YES LIFE IS FUCKING GREAT:D

Oh wait no its not.

Next my life decided to take a shotgun loaded with five rounds of 'lets-fuck-up-Taylor's-life-some-more' and shot huge holes in the relationship with my bestfriend.

Yeah you heard me. BESTfriend.

So now im back to square one.

Sorry for the long ass rant.

Carry on.