Bad Day.
Last night, I had one of my worst days at work. And I was on the brink of loosing it. Now come to think of it, I think I lost it. My duty started not quite well and I felt like I wanted to explode. I feel so frustrated about my application alongside with the immense pressure at work. From the start, I never really wanted this position. And now that I get blamed by the things that I do or the wrong decisions that I make, I get really pushed to my limits. I feel like the stress is pressing me too hard to the point that my relationship to other people get affected. And I really hate that. When work gets in the way. Yesterday, I just wanted to cry. And I did. I was trying to call my dad but he didn’t answer. I just cried. I locked my self up in the office because I felt that I needed a sort of release. But after that, I felt even worse. I was too tired to function because of the stress of dealing with some irrational and inconsiderate people at work. I ate a supposedly satisfying meal but it felt not like it. I feel myself getting fuller but it didn’t do anything to make me feel better so I sent a message to my boyfriend. I told him what I was going through. The rain was pouring so hard that night and I was alone at home. He said I just needed a few drinks and that I should probably need a night out but since every place in town was flooded, I decided to buy a few drinks and food and directly went home. I had a warm bath and cuddled myself up in my room with my dog. I had a few bottles of beer some chips and snacks. And I just talked to him. He was a bit worried though. But he still managed to make me feel better. And I love what he does to me. Those simple things. Regardless of the distance, his virtual presence still suffice. I think that’s the thing when it comes to relationships, you’re supposed to make each other feel better.
