#louvan

[mchynoweth]

You're all so angry & hate us so much & we're just running around in our own world loving everyone

[mchynoweth]

savanna seymour

will forever be half of my heart

[mchynoweth]

i love my best friend more than anyone and when she's hurt i wanna kill somebody

[mchynoweth]

louvan

finally spending a day w/ my best friend

[mchynoweth]

SAV

and i just cuddled the whole time at the fire drill because i was cold. i guess that's why people think we're gay,.

[mchynoweth]

so vannerz & i have been laying in our bed screaming as loud as we can at each other because we wanted to make our parents think we were fighting.. then we figured out that they're so used to hearing us scream, they ignore it..

[mchynoweth]

so i've been thinking

a lot about my relationship with van & we've had a couple serious talks lately that have been much needed. it can be frustrating at times because we're so different with some things, but just alike with others. and our differences are what makes us mad at each other but now that i've been thinking about it they are what make us so close too. van is the most important person to me, and when it comes to her i always try to show her affection and get all deep on her, and i go to her and tell her every little thing. i open up to her with everything. but when it comes to her, it's totally a different story. it took me over a year to realize a lot of the things she says to me is a joke & just because she doesn't tell me how much she loves me, and that she doesn't laugh at my jokes doesn't mean she doesn't care about me as much as i do her and it doesn't mean she doesn't love me. it's been three years now, and we're as close as best friends can be. i'm excited because i stressed to her about how much i want her to open up to me and that it's important and i know she's working on it because it's not something that she just does. three years or not. i just love her and i'm glad it's already our third christmas together!

[mchynoweth]

savy~

so last night, i finally opened up to van & said things out loud that i never wanted to say and she and i sat down for hours and she had me comprehend everything instead of handling situations the way i usually do, because the way i usually do isn't healthy. we've been close for years now but i finally spilled everything and i don't feel judged, i feel better and i'm okay. thank god for louvan.