Nov 14, 2025
Been delaying surgery. I really do need surgery, however, operating that close to the spine has potential risk, some 20 30% chances of movement impairment, and 40 50% chances of nerve damage. And I've been delaying it particularly for one reason that I wanna take a walk with her one last time before I take the risk of being paralyzed. And although we've talked after falling apart, we've talked and even worked together on some projects, but something in me just doesn't let me ask her to go out and take a walk with me. The pit I'm dying in without her is deeper than I thought, even light doesn't reach me down here. She took my sunshine too.
