Yesterday, I asked you guys to send me asks and Tumblr user lovealwayslily asked me if I had ever been in love/ out of love.
I have been in love once. He was my first love and I had never felt anything like it before. I had never wanted someone so much. We were together for almost three years. As we got older, we started growing up more and changing. Things weren't the same and I could feel myself falling out of love and I don't think there is anything scarier than looking the person you love in the eye and not feeling the way you used to anymore. I fell head over heels in love. I was mad for him, but things changed, he got mean, and I left him.
It's been two years since I left him. (Wow today is September 6th, it is exactly 2 years since I left him). I am much happier and better off without his abuse, but I still catch myself wondering if he is okay. I'll always care about him, but I do not want him in my life.
Sorry for the huge personal post! Ignore it if it's that uninteresting to you.