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[jetforcegeminis]

My experience with David Spero

I have the deepest gratitude for David Spero. I have no one to tell about it so I’ll just write a bit here. Being there, at the church, was so amazing. It felt like a once in a lifetime experience but I’m determined to see him again and as often as I can. I’ve never been in a church with that kind of immense feeling of love and bliss, or anywhere for that matter. It just felt like an appropriate place of meeting. I came in late because I misunderstood the place of meeting and as I nervously made my way up the creaking old stairs into this quiet church, everyone was meditating with some heads nodding down and some legs crossed. I immediately felt comfortable and relaxed as I took off my shoes, found a seat, and closed my eyes. The way I’m going to talk about someone I’ve only met once may seem odd or overly intimate but you can’t not with David. Probably because it’s not really David, it’s the divine, the loving form of God. But to be honest, I’m not really sure what David is. After the beginning meditation David began talking and I was mesmerized by the magic happening in the room, in a trance. The talking was happening but I was only half listening, half in awe and couldn’t pay attention. He touched on topics like being free from enlightenment, different states of consciousness, and shiva-shakti. I remember telling him about Jan Esmann and he said that he’s the real deal and to tell him that he said hi and sends his love and blessings. Some people were asking questions, I felt stumped the entire time. We meditated some more and then David went around asking others there experiences. He’d say things like, “come into communion with me”, “eat me”, “burn”. Despite the shakti in the room, it still sounded a bit odd. Then he got to me, “How are you feeling?” to which I responded, “Like I’m in a dream. Underwater.” I was surprised I could get the words out as he looked at me. At this point, I was exactly like he described to the rest exactly what I meant. Like he knew my inner experience exactly and told everyone. “Yes, you’re underwater, in the ocean of love and bliss.” It was something like that. He said this but it was really just words in the background as I was consumed by his transmission, as this indescribable feeling drowned me and made every one of my cells and whatever else I’m made of vibrate vigorously with love and bliss. I’m not sure what else to say on that. You can’t just meet David once. How can you not fall in love with that? Words like love, bliss, God, and shakti all have a different meaning now. Life has a new meaning now. It’s crazy to have such an experience and know that this is what Life is, where it came from, that bliss is the very fabric of existence. 

[jetforcegeminis]

Last nights meditation + Ramblings

From my mind, but also seemingly from another source, the thought appears, “We do not know the power of ‘The Blue Being”. A flash of Jan and the mala I’m wearing simultaneously appears with a flash of tremendous heat from my spine that emanates to my whole body in that split second. A humbling experience. I’ve read that this process needs time, we engage in practices to prepare ourselves to hold deeper and deeper aspects of realization/God, and in that flash I understood why. My whole nervous system could’ve easily been vaporized. When I say tremendous heat, I mean it quite literally. Sounds dramatic, but not at all. The reality of these experiences tend to come off fairytale-ish but I suppose thats the fun of it. Igor kufayev said something along the lines that the process is where the joy is. Or maybe he didn’t but it was something like that. We don’t have to keep looking at the end, wondering why we haven’t reached certain states. Just let kundalini flow, rest and abide in the growth process. Whether we hit the ceiling and experience beautiful bliss for the rest of our lives isn’t a concern here (but that’s why I’m here). Granted, I do look for pleasure in other aspects of life and naively think that if I accomplish/do other things in the world that I’ll somehow be forever happier. I know that isn’t true. I know that I act out from ignorance and that I don’t really know until I stop that. I feel that it is my Karma to be distracted from my yoga and that I’ve been put in this life to experience what I’ve desired in previous lives. I think a good portion of me though is like “fuck that”. I’m in control of my destiny. I’ll take over myself, put his stupidity to sleep, go after the one True thing. Shoot over the moon, straight into the burning sun of bliss/God.

[jetforcegeminis]

Thank you for this opportunity for tremendous growth. As I continue this gracious sadhana I see that the journey to Pure Life is a great joy. Although all ways are on their way, I’m glad to have been taken by the lightning path of Shakti. 

[lalahdelia]

Getting a sea turtles foot massage :)