Does anyone else feel like they really want to talk to people about their problems, but you don't want the people in your life to know? Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore the people in my life. They are the most supportive system and usually I do reach out and want to vent to them.
But this time I just want to talk to people that know absolutely nothing about me. Maybe to get a new point of view. It also feels so much more refreshing that I can't even explain it to myself.
I want to live my life but I also want to live a private life. I think a big thing about myself is that I overshare about my life sometimes. Now, everyone around me knows what I've been through and what I'm going through now. It brought on a lot of pressure to me because I felt as if I'm always being expected of something or everyone that I encounter is always wondering about the update in my life. Which lately, I have not been wanting to share.
I always felt like I was living my life to please other people. Whether that may be my parents, friends, or family. I'm slowly learning to enjoy life on my own without wanting the "approval" of others. So maybe that's why it's so refreshing... Talking to people that don't know you. Knowing that I'm being listened to but not judged (out loud at least) and especially not having that pressure of always being expected of something.
This blog makes me feel like I'm screaming all my problems to the world, but no one knows me. No one knows the face behind this account. It has really saved me. So, thank you all. You have saved me.
~ sincerely, ·· new-scenes ··