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When will the cycle of heartbreak stop? Everytime I fall for someone, they don’t catch me. Instead they catch someone else who never deserves them. But it’s forbidden love, so I’m incredibly torn between my emotions and my morals. Dying seems like a better option so as to stop this pain. I wish I had never known what being attracted to someone actually feels like. It’s always my cause of depression and suicidal thoughts. Even though I’ve chosen to be myself, I have no one. No one loves me and fights for me like the priority. Why do I always fight for someone and they end up choosing someone else? It’s never the other way round. I never want the people who fall for me because I just don’t want them, they’re not the one I love and truly want. The one I want always falls for others. You fall for one they fall for another. The cycle never ends and I’m better off dead. Everyone has someone and I’m incredibly jealous to the point my stomach hurts and I get anxiety. Who would have thought asking for love was such a hard thing even though it sounds so simple? Just end me. Love is a stupid thing that drives me insane.
