One thing I learned last year is that my previous internet image of calm and traumatized girl sent a completely different message of who i am to people which is why i decided to be more open about my weirdest thoughts.
I still think how shocking it was that someone wanted to take me away from my families but once they started living with me, they were immediately taken back by how I am, they clearly believed i was some helpless traumatized child that only needed support, compassion and be treated like your common frail traumatized girl stereotype, that once she tried to do that with me, she got surprised i physically recoiled over any sort of compassion, wasnt emotionally affectionate and was in general just distant, did not talk about myself or my problems and hated being treated like a sad child.
she kept telling me to "Open up to her" and i found that sketchy and started digging stuff up about her until she tried to control my life and relationships and i finally reached the breaking point where i destroyed her whole circle of friends, im pretty sure everyone that knew her back then now hates her and that's extremely satisfying. I hope the fame i gave you for trying to emotionally manipulate me keeps making you scared of it finding your new group forever.
