I have been trying to find the words to describe what I experienced on the weekend with some epic human beings. @alexipanos and @prestonsmiles created a space where I was not only free to express and free to be but a place where my heart was opened, my mind was cleared, and in truth, my life was reborn. . I learnt that in the midst of pain, you can still achieve the greatest missions. I struggled with my own guilt of not being by my sisters bed while she is in ICU, I fought against wanting to leave and be there. I fought against fleeing from my pain and putting her needs before mine, but in that was the biggest lesson of all. I fell into old patterns of not sharing, of not wanting to be the one talking about my pain because I didn’t want to take up others space. . But I deserve that space! And people deserve to be in that space. In sharing I felt the deepest connection with amazing human beings, that I’ve never felt before. Or rather I’ve never let myself feel. . I have been guilty of letting people in but keeping them at arms length. This weekend my barriers came down. . I expressed myself, I shared stuff I’ve never shared, not even with my husband. And that’s because of the space that was created - a loving, I got you, give it your all, space. I did things that if anyone had told me I would be doing I would have laughed and said no freaking way! . I know I’ve said it before but this time it truly comes from my heart - the old Shantel/Shannii is gone. You will be SEEING me from now on ❤️ . . #thebridgeexperience #wearelove #lovesvoice #lovethebug #strongwithoutrealising #growthroughwhatyougothrough (at Brisbane Convention & Exhibition Centre) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bqn2hDnlS9w/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gln8tfujc1qm
