⤷ In which Suguru Geto may (or may not) misses you after leaving
White angel come, intoxicates my blood
Geto remembers the first time he met you at jujutsu high. You clicked with Satoru almost immediately, while taking a little more time to warm up to him.
To him, you were like an angel sent from above, completely intoxicating him with different emotions, jealousy, longing, enamore.
It didn't take long until Shoko figured out how much he liked you, she even convinced him to finally man up and talk to you.
He thought you were head over heels for Gojo, so of course it took him by surprise when you jumped in his arms with a smile bright enough to make him grin too.
Like the angel you were, washing away his negative feelings, not all of it, but he found comfort in you, and so it was enough.
Until it wasn't.
Just another hit, you'd get used to it.
The taste of curses were clearly getting too much for him. He thought he had enough.
Don't waiver, fulfill your duty as a jujutsu sorcerer
He had thoughts in his mind,
So when Yuki suggested the idea of killing all non sorcerers, perhaps it didn't sound that bad.
Just another grit
After the failed star plasma mission, you were there with him every step of the way. Your shoulder was there for him to lean on, you were the one that held his hair back when he doubled over the toilet, and you were the one that let him kiss you until he felt the taste was gone.
Even when he spiraled further, you were there next to him. Especially when he held onto you tightly and didn't let go for a long time.
Your bones are only painted gold, that's why it rots beneath your soul
So imagine how dumbfounded you felt when he left without a word.
To be specific, without a word to you.
He found the time to at least say goodbye to his best friend, but why not his girlfriend? The one who made sure he knew you'd be by his side no matter what.
You're not as brave as you may seem
Oh right. He was scared.
What would you have said if you knew what he became?
He could only think of how you reacted after you found out about the village massacre, so what would you have said knowing he took over a whole cult?
The day he found Shoko, she'd pointed out you were nearby.
He could've looked for you
and you would've said something like
"I'm not waiting any longer for you, realizing you got nothing to give? Took too long for you to show it."
Of course you'd be angry, right.
Or you would've told him not to go.
Or you would've said something like
"I'll be with you every step of the way, i'll go with you Suguru."
But he didn't. And now it keeps him up at night.
i'm scared of life, it's in my blood
Suguru Geto was once scared of the world, the jujutsu society and those curses that ruin him from inside out.
Now he was one to be scared of, a special grade cursed user. His blood was filled with nothing more than the desire to be rid of all monkeys that stood in his way.
He heard you'd become a special grade too, would you kill him if you two ever fought?
So I blame myself
Why hadn't he just talked to you all those years ago.
Why couldn't he be brave enough to see you one last time.
Why couldn't he get rid of the lingering taste of your lips?
I blame myself
Sometimes he sends curses to watch over you. He couldn't ignore the lingering trace of guilt for not being there to protect you, even if you were more than capable.
The curses were usually exorcised, he wonders if you knew they were from him.
Sometimes he imagines you two riding on his rainbow dragon together, his arms wrapped tightly around your waist as he placed kisses along your the lines of your face.
Though he doesn't think you'd like seeing him like this.
I blame myself
So he says, or does he really blame those stupid monkeys and the entirety of the jujutsu society?
White pretty snowflakes
Stupid monkeys, how dare they go and have fun with each other at a time like this while he's alone without you.
The snow drops slowly outside, and ends up in a pile stuck altogether. How cute would it look turned into a snowman.
white pretty snowflakes
Pretty snowflakes, he always told you to wear a coat when going outside. It's too itchy, you always argued. And always you ended up sick. I told you so, he chuckled whenever you sneezed and sounded like a herd of zebras drowning in a washing machine.
Suguru was delighted to take care of you anyway, suddenly the sickness didn't feel that bad anymore whenever he placed his lips onto yours.
Even if he got sick after, you'd take care of him anyways.
white pretty snowflakes
It's mocking him, the snowflakes are falling even slower than the tear cascading down his face. He never regretted anything, his beliefs will stand until long after the day he falls. But you being by his side doesn't sound so bad.
What's the time? 10:36, you'd probably be up by now, maybe he should give you a call.
falling on my face
Pick up, why arent you picking up?
How long has he been blocked, was it long enough for him to just realize it now?
That didn't help the now overflowing tears on his face, or the hiccups that were slowly coming up.
your bones are only painted gold, that's why it rots beneath your soul
Geto still had a routine, lead his cult, take care of the girls, take care of the temple, and get rid of the monkeys causing all the problems, slowly but surely.
Except now sulking in the quiet hours of night feels even more worse than before.
His calloused hands could never feel as good as yours the way you cupped your fingers over his cheeks, wiping away blood that wasn't even his. It finally hit him how much he missed leaning into those hands.
you're not as brave as you may seem
Maybe Suguru will come find you and apologize
Maybe he'll introduce you to the girls as their mother
Maybe he'll worship you in front of his cult
Maybe you two can finally live as a happy family
that's why it hurts me
Or maybe Suguru Geto will wake up and realize it was nothing more than a dream
Maybe, just maybe
this song came up in my playlist and I just lowkey though of geto 😣😣
