i hate hate hate hate when i sit down to study listening to music and then the thoughts of sam’s body never being his own throughout the show, his body being treated like a commodity, an object other people have rights over flood my mind
sam always trying to seek his autonomy throughout the show, constantly trying to “get away”, unconsciously aware that he is not his own, he will never be; and still trying to make his own choices
just to be sucked back into the cycle of others being in control of him to the point where he does not even have the privilege to decide his death, he never really did.
he belonged to mary, she gave him to azazel, after azazel dies, john gave away what authority he had to dean- dean gets to make calls on sam’s life and death- dean does, everytime sam dies its usually dean who brings him back for sam has no choice on his self - he is dean’s. after dean’s dragged to hell he is “his own”- or so he thinks just to be sucked into ruby’s tactics of making him feel in control just to make all the calls herself, dean claims him back, then he belongs to lucifer, then dean again as dean is the one who decides whether sam gets his soul back- sam has no say in it, then its gadreel with dean orchestrating his brother’s possession against his will, then dean all over again, he gets comfortable with that just to find out he is god’s favourite little plaything, after god, he belongs to dean again until dean’s death
sam was never his own, he will never really be, he’s been “bought” and “sold” multiple times; the show always treating him like a product more than a person
everyone else in the show has some extent of bodily autonomy despite being possessed multiple times but sam does not have any regardless of if he is “possessed” or not
brb gotta dry my tears off of my copy of a midsummer night’s dream,
yours truly, x
