Mar 25, 2018
playing a drinking game called “i have been so horribly depressed & I’m not sure when I last actually washed my hair bc every time I try to take a shower I end up sitting on the floor and dissociating” lmao
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playing a drinking game called “i have been so horribly depressed & I’m not sure when I last actually washed my hair bc every time I try to take a shower I end up sitting on the floor and dissociating” lmao
livin for that self sabotage can i get a yeehaw
my only talent is being self destructive
love fears
sean is such a beautiful and intense human. sometimes when i’m around him i just clam up and shrivel away inside myself like a lovesick 15 yr old, i get nervous and giddy and intimidated....sometimes he feels so distant. or i’m just distant from everything and everyone around me. we’ve been together for close to a year now and honestly i wish i could just be 100% comfortable with him.
i mean i am, most of the time, able to be myself and completely at ease but there still is this underlying fear driven by my own stupid insecurities and secrets and self-loathing. i wish i could abandon all that useless baggage and completely give myself to the deep love i feel for him. but alas....
i just have this underlying fear that he’s planning on leaving me, that his thoughts are too intense for me and that he wishes i could be on his level of intelligence and purity but i just cant. there is no reason to be so insecure, i know, but i just dont know if i’m good enough. if i’m enough of a Woman for him. if my feelings are too much for him and scare him more and more as each day goes by. i’m scared that he doesn’t love me like i love him and i’m too afraid of the answer to ask. and so i clam up, shrivel away inside myself like a grown, emaciated baby, waiting for the end to come (as it always must); too nervous about the future to truly enjoy the present, to enjoy his Presence while i still have it
I'm happy & all but I need to get fucked
when you plan a year in advance to go to a 1d concert with your friend and they owe you money for the ticket and the hotel but say they can only pay for half of it 2 weeks before you leave hHAAAHAHA
I'm chopping like three inches off my hair Wednesday and IM SO EXCITED I JUST WANTED TO TYPE IT OUT OK
when no one you love wants to be around you bc you're actually awful✌🏼️✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼✌🏼