When I was 16, a girl who I had met only once but was a really nice person and who was my age went to bed and didn't wake up the next day. It freaked me out. How do you deal with knowing someone your age just went to bed and did not wake up the next day. I understand what your feeling right now and the brain just doesn't handle it well. It's very confronting because we don't want to think about that sort of thing happening to us but we can't help it. The crazy brain will pass. Hope your ok. X
i know all the thoughts are totally irrational, but it doesn't take away the fear that some times things just happen and there isn't a damn thing you can do it about it.
you're just living the life given to you, and it isn't always up to if you get to keep it.
and the grieving process is not something i have any familiarity with, so all this crazy hard lefts my brain is making just makes me feel outright crazy no matter how many times i remind myself 'Lauren, you're not.' and that this is just part of dealing with what happened.
in the end, i know it will get easier, as much as it doesn't feel at the moment it will.
