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[loki-licious-945ad]

[mletart]

pynch posting TDT 14/∞

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CH 30

in Stiefvater’s own words, known as METAPHOR CITY

so it starts with Ronan having a hard time falling asleep

the last thing the narration states Ronan thinks about before he finally falls asleep is “the dark bags beneath Adam's eyes”

Ronan takes note of how Adam is doing sO often

then Ronan does fall asleep, and this short chapter is dedicated to the wildest religious-guilt-sex-type-dream i'm gonna go ahead and say Ever ✨

Adam was in the dream, too; he traced the tangled pattern of the ink with his finger. He said, "Scio quid hoc est." As he traced it farther and farther down on the bare skin of Ronan's back, Ronan himself disappeared entirely, and the tattoo got smaller and smaller. It was a Celtic knot the size of a wafer, and then Adam, who had become Kavinsky, said, "Scio quid estis vos." He put the tattoo in his mouth and swallowed it.

Ronan woke with a start, ashamed and euphoric.

The euphoria wore off long before the shame did.

He was never sleeping again.

Likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Unparalleled

there's so much going on and I'm not the most qualified person to unpack all this~

but like. we might not know entirely how Ronan feels about Adam up to this point but now we Know Ronan dreams about Adam tracing his tattoo 👀👀👀 (Manifesting~)

Ronan interweaves the idea Adam and K saying ‘I know what this is’ and ‘I know what you are’ Ronan wants someone out there to understand him especially while Ronan doesn't feel like he understands himself

K and Ronan are obviously very similar, K is a twisted reflection of Ronan’s worst aspects. K is distinctly in one of the best positions to understand Ronan, as one of the only other dreamers around, but K’s advice to Ronan in regard to dreaming is more of a set back than a help, and his influence makes Ronan feel lower as opposed to feeling truly understood

Adam and Ronan are in very early phases, but Ronan wants to be understood by Adam, specifically. Ronan dreams about trying to communicate with Adam. such a significant part of Ronan and Adam’s development is them coming to know one another, and feeling known. Ronan and Adam match well together, because they both have similar thornier aspects and they both have similar positive aspects as well. over time, they're able to help each other through learning about magic, and the things that magic acts as metaphors for, they learn about themselves and each other and are able to be good support systems for one another

I think one of the most significant themes in the books is how developing that sense of connection with other people is what makes the heavy stuff in life seem worthwhile

and in a way, this religious-guilt-sex-type-dream is kinda a warped funhouse mirror of what does actually end up happening for Ronan

one of thE First things Adam does after he and Ronan start making out for real is check out Ronan’s tattoo ✨ and Adam understands so much more about Ronan by that time.

here Ronan thinks “he was never sleeping again” because he feels ashamed of what he dreamed about, and down the line after he and Adam kiss he thinks “he was never sleeping again” because he feels so happy he doesn't need any dreams 🥹

basically it's mortifying having wants and desires.

but ☝️ possibly it gets (slightly?) less mortifying if you're able to attain what you want? you gotta hang in there and find out ✨

[andearlysunsets]

if u use ai for literally anything i automatically think less of u as a person like what do u mean u can’t think, write, create, etc. for yourself

[everythingseasoning]

what i don’t get is when ppl keep having relationships fail and they DON’T ask themselves what they’re doing that’s deeply flawed and causing the cracks/rifts. like. do you not care to learn and grow?? (my mind is boggled.) this is why ur mistakes keep repeating themselves. you’re unaware of something. do better- please.

[chasseusedetoiles]

this is another strong take but captive prince would be more palatable to you if you’d stop projecting your usa-centric view of the world in a story in which there are literally two white dudes because spoiler: Damen is white too

He comes from a country that is a mix of Ancient Greece and Ancient Rome, and where are those two place located? IN EUROPE!!! Yes, Damen tans a lot and he basically becomes dark in summer but that’s completely normal for a character based on Mediterranean people…

Also, I can understand that you find the term “barbarian” uncomfortable if you come from certain places but maybe you also missed when Damen calls Vere a barbaric place? And this, my dears, it’s an example of European rivalry where any other place outside your own country is full of barbarians

What I’m trying to say is the world of Captive Prince is not a 1:1 replica of the real world, it’s its own world based on medieval France/Ancient Greece where the slade trade didn’t even exist, chill

[everythingseasoningtalks]

I truly can’t find it in me to be close or stay close with somebody who doesn’t process life more deeply, and is more emotionally attuned to others. Seriously. I’m so sick and so tired of being the caretaker of emotional illiterate adults who were supposed to guide and support me, adults who deny accountability and care, adults who react instead of pause and cool their heads. I can’t do this in my friendships, too. I used to love being the mother and therapist friend because it’s what I naturally fit into and was good at and cared to engage in and cared to give— but now I just can’t, at least, not if it’s not reciprocal (shared wavelengths.)

It truly flabbergasts me how unaware some people are. Like. I could talk and guarantee that they’d miss everything of substance to me, even when I explicitly state that I’d like their response on something.

It truly flabbergasts me that some people aren’t as equally nurturing, curious about what the core of a person is, want their growth and genuine lasting fulfillment, show fucking care.

[missingbillyhargrove]

My comic con is next week and Dacre can no longer attend. It was the entire reason I was going. I know it is out of his control and the con’s control but I’m upset and just at the end of my rope. It’s been such a shitty week. There is more important things than this but it’s just the tip of the iceburg….I’m gonna go and have fun the best I can and just hope next week will be better… guess it wasn’t meant to be ☹️

[iiiiiiits-m]

worst part of having a medical professional for a parent: it doesn’t matter what field of medicine they’re in, whenever you suggest you may have some medical condition they will immediately rule it out like they’re the expert on the topic. I’m trying to figure out why I’m always dizzy and going from lying down to standing is so exhausting for my body, but god forbid I suggest POTS because my MIDWIFE and OB/GYN of a mother doesn’t think I have it. It doesn’t matter that my aunt does and that it’s hereditary. It doesn’t matter that I’m just spitballing because I just want to figure out what’s wrong with my body. According to her I’m probably just anemic (even though I only fit one of the symptoms, dizzy)