He said he wished I was by him, holding his hand to sleep.
I asked whether he missed me or missed "anyone" and he hesitated which made my mind run miles before I could even take another breath.
He knew what that question meant, he knew it meant more than I could even explain myself and the depth that came with it.
Soon he clarified that what made him hesitate was how it suddenly hit him how badly he actually wanted me in his bed, to hold hands and cuddle to sleep, not even once in his life had he felt such thing, the longing of having a specific and special person by his side and when he was actually going to reply my name in a heartbeat he realised even more how much he's sure he's never loved anyone as much and how, that shocked him. He knew he loved me a lot just not the actual depth of it.
My overthinking ceased almost immediately, my mind went blank as I tried my best to hold my tears and I don't think I've ever been speechless or powerless to the extent that I was completely surrendered to this utterly amazing man, a man who had showed me the true meaning of love, the true meaning of a healthy love that makes you grow and improve, that makes you accept yourself and be reminded of how astonishing your entire being is every single day.
Soon enough my chest tightened, fear echoed, I am not ready to lose such a precious human being anytime soon..specially not when every since cell of mine longs to belong to his, longs to do so for as long as my heart shall beat.
And I was never really a believer myself but in that moment I did wish something was powerful enough to hear distant prayers, those that wished such an amazing event would be finally it. My happy "it".
And he does believe in soulmates.
This amazing man who makes me laugh whenever and wherever, told me he believed in soulmates and how someone might be destinated to a certain person and I swore that if only my eyes could speak, they would whisper a thousand ways to say I love you right there and then.
