#m.rant

[1way2mars]

sometimes you just need to vent to your close friends and hear them say that your feelings and the way your handling a situation are valid. and knowing that i have the support of my friends and that they are there to help me through my problems, whether it is to sympathise with me or to offer me another way to view the situation, make me feel so loved. im truly so grateful for the friends i have in my life right now 💌

[1way2mars]

being in a dc server in which you're super comfortable only for it to be ruined because someone you dislike from the fandom(s) you love joined said server

[1way2mars]

back to 'do even people care about my translations' kind of thoughts like is it even worthy of me to spend all my effort and time in these

[1way2mars]

being sent links by my friends and sending them links related to the things we love, regardless of the us sharing the same interests, is really my top love language. it's a constant “look this fanart of that character you love!”, “this manga might interest you”, “look at this random news of the thing you love!”, “this silly reel is so you”... and all those links and texts really show love. it's a reminder to the other person that you think of them

[1way2mars]

what am i supposed to do with all this sadness and love and anger and contentment and pain and—

[1way2mars]

i was gonna write some depressive shit because today was even shittier, but instead i decided to keep that to myself. so im just gonna complain about how i have finally decided to start looking for a therapist so i can make an appointment, but the therapy section in my dad's health insurance website isn't working. and i just want to cry even more because why the fuck isn't it working

[1way2mars]

to be an aromatic person im sure going through a horrible heartbreak.

which i think it's kind of ironic and it makes me laugh, but at the same time im so hurt and sad and angry and tired of feeling all of it.

but definitely the thing that hurts the most is that i literally went through the cliché ‘aromantic person is left behind for a romantic partner’

and it makes me extremely sad that somebody i thought that wouldn't make me go through this actually did. and that this will probably not be the first time i will feel this way.

but im still very proud of who i am! and being aromantic is definitely something i take so much pride on, so taking this experience to make myself stronger and love my identify and believes even more!

[1way2mars]

today was a really bad day for me in terms of being aspec, because of comments that people said explicitly about it or in more general way. it was a reminder that not everyone (who im close with) will understand my identity and they might support me, but part of me knows that they will still be a little weirded out because of who i am and the way i feel about sexual/romantic/platonic relationships.

i've been feeling so sad and upset during the whole day. and i know that the people who made the comments weren't saying it in a mean way, but still I'm so hurt because of it. i tend to be so proud about my own identity in this aspect, but today was simply so difficult.