Oh god I just realized why Zayne feels like home (he is safety. he understands me) and Rafayel feels like living (emotional intensity/exploration/shared emotional experiences/same resonating feelings in the moment it happens)
Zayne is careful, thoughtful, attentive, and precise, in his understanding of me. He sees me in a clear and deep way. He makes me feel loved and known in a way that no other Li does.
But Rafayel is — he is laughing hard WITH me as we do life. He is creating shared intense experiences. He’s irreplaceable in passion and spark.









