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kamsahamnida

thank you to anyone that has supported me when it came to my music, photography, dancing, videos, graphic design, and more. It really means a lot. It’s one of those things that keep me going when I feel uninspired or down.

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srm

It's kinda of weird knowing/thinking that you're actually gone. Just doesn't feel right. And I know that you've gone through a lot these past 10-11 years and that you're not in pain anymore, but it just doesn't feel right.. I didn't like seeing you like that. You've so much for me and my siblings. I always have and will love you. I hope you're really at peace. I love you Nana.

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Fall '17

Has been the worst semester thus far.

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sick to my stomach..

but I gotta do it...

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Can't wait for this week to be over😪

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Maybe all the suffering will make sense later on but for now:.

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🔺

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“Ar”

It’s crazy how a small decision or event can affect your life. That was the case between me and you. I remember you being in my math class (That I barely went to lol) my first semester in college. Never talked to you, or anyone in the case really, but I just knew of you since you were in the same math class. The following semester we ended being in the same Botany class. I recognized you from that terrible math class from last semester. Of course I didn’t say anything because I only knew “of” you. 

Didnt actually know you. I would always sit towards the back of the class on the left side. I can’t remember where you sat, but it was nowhere near me. I sat and become cool with the guy who sat next to me “aD”. Since me and him were cool we would just sit next to each other. Fast forward to the day that literally changed our relationship. That day I was running kinda late for Botany class. Later than usual. When I walked into the class everyone was paired for a class exercise. You somehow ended being paired up with “aD”. After class we all walked out with each other and talked. Me and you talked about that math class. That was the moment I officially met you. If I came to class on time that day I would’ve never met you. You just would’ve been another face who I had a class with. After that class you would sometimes work on class exercises with me, “aD”, and whoever we usually worked with . The three of us became quite cool with each other. I forgot how it came up but I remember “aD” telling me that he liked you and was trying to date you. I wass like “Oooooh snap. I see you haha”. Fast forward (again), After we finished with our final exam for that class we had planned to go to the park and just chill. I ended up bringing my cousin since he was one of the few people I was around most of the time. It was hot that day so we didn’t stay for that long, but we all had fun. After the day at the park me, you, and my cousin become close for some odd reason. You had told us that you didn’t like “aD” the way he liked you. Me, you, and my cousin spent a lot of time chilling with each other doing random shit. Honestly, it made me very happy since I was going through an “eh” time. I remember we would help you sneak out of your parents house so we can chill. Then when you moved to your own apartment with your brother we would just be over there acting like fools. You even came out to watch me dance and learned a little bit. You were almost like a long lost family member to me.. But now it’s different. It first started with me. We wouldn’t talk as much. You would still hang out with my cousin but you pretty much went afk on me. Then you stopped talking to both of us. We still followed each other on ig so at least I knew you were alive. I believed you’re went out of service so I sent a msg through IG. You had told me that you lost your contacts and you missed me. You asked for my number but you never texted me. I wasn’t going to bother you about it though. A week ago i was at practice and “K” had brought you up. So after practice I checked your ig to see if you posted anything lately/if you’re still alive lol. The only thing I found out was that you had blocked me. To be honest it really hurt seeing that. I wondered what did I do to make you stop talking to me and block.. I thought about it for a while that night and decided to let it and you go. I planned on writing this post a week ago but never got to it. If we somehow end up running into each other I will treat you like a stranger. I don’t think you know I have a tumblr and you prob won’t ever see this. From the bottom of my heart I want tothank you for all funny/chill moments that we had, but if you want to block me out of your life then so be it.