#m:skip

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is there anything you've been avoiding filling tony in on since he doesn't really remember you?

Not a whole lot. Probably just... Mysterio and Skip. Anything else that comes up, I tell him, 'cause it gets us closer to where we were before.

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Peter, do you ever get bad nightmares when it comes to beck, or even Skip? What does tony do to help?

I get bad nightmares from lots of things. Tony's a mushy guy though, so whenever I have one, he'll rock me in his arms or brush over my hair with his fingers until I get tired again. Sometimes he puts a baby in my arms, 'cause he knows they always make me feel better.

Tony never lets me feel bad long.

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Now, that Tony’s gone, I just- I’m gonna take a moment to get a few things off my chest, okay? You guys... you’re awesome. Seriously.

As many bad things that have happened while we’ve been running this blog, there’s also been a lot of good things! I lot of really amazing things, that I didn’t think would ever happen, and you guys are a huge part of that.

You’ve been there for my coming out about Skip, you’ve been here for us coming out to our families, and now... now you guys are gonna be here to see us make a new one.

God, I feel totally cheesy and just super cringey laying it all out there like this, but thank you. All of you, seriously. You have no idea what it means to some loser kid from Queens, like me.

I’m gonna go now- before I miss the bus again, or worse, start crying in front of everyone because hormones, but I just wanted to air that out, before Tony was here to see it. I love you guys, I love him, and I’m just... really, really loving life right now.

Talk to you after the field trip!

Peter Parker, signing off~

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sorry if I made you feel bad pete? I love you and tony and the "daddy" thing was just a joke.

Oh no, you’re good! I was just talking about the fun little “Peter has no dad” reminders. Those are always nice, you know? Kind of like when people randomly bring up Skip, or send messages that just say “Dead Uncle”.

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I don’t want to freak either of you out but earlier today I heard Skip might be back in queens for a while, something about moving in with a cousin because he got fired from his last job

Dealing with it.

Don’t, under any circumstance, mention anything about this to Peter.

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How are you feeling regarding the whole trauma comparison thing? I can't imagine how awful that feels for you and Tony, bit especially you after working through it for so long.

It sucks, and I hate it. I hate all of it.

Makes me feel crazy or guilty for wanting what I have, but that’s even more confusing because I already know I shouldn’t. I just- I shouldn’t feel like I’m disappointing her by being with someone who makes me happy and helps me through what happened.

I don’t want what Skip did to be connected to what Tony and I have now.

What happened then was wrong, and- and it makes me sick, and hearing someone think that they could be related is just… it’s….

I’m running out of words.

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This is hard to say even anonymously. My uncle has done things with me since I was 5 up until I moved away junior year of highschool. No one knows and it’s never been reported. I’ve been afraid to. I never tried to run or say no. I think I wanted it. But I can’t avoid him everytime we visit, so I just make sure I’m never in a room without someone else there too. I don’t want to tear my family apart. I don’t know how to get out of this either. I think I need help.

You were five. No one wants that when they’re five, no one.

I really wanna help you, I do, but… I don’t know what else I can say at this point. You should talk to a professional, you know? Someone more qualified than just… me.

Tony and I want to be here for all of you, and we are! We just can’t tell you what you should do. I still don’t even agree with what I did after Skip happened.