#macfarlanefuck

[msarahpaulsons]

macfarlanefuck replied to your post:Your top 3 sex tips:

Damn it, Sarah! I was counting on an answer..

All I can say is, read my book

[georgiehaig-blog]

i’d love to on any tbh!

Anna is the only one I cant do anything on right now because she's in NYC for a play. I'll come up with something for our people tonight and message you with a few ideas. 

[prettylitte-lucy]

[emiliamacfarlane]

But that's not going to happen, and I know that. And I know I'm terrified I'm going to screw up being a father, I just want Newt to like me, and I just want you to know that I'm trying to open up as much as I can. That's all that's on my mind right now, and I want you to have a great pregnancy and I want you to be alright, I don't want you to have any stress.

I know you are trying, baby and I appreciate and love that so much. You're not going to screw up as a father, because you want to know why? You're not your dad, and you have me. I'm not going to let you screw up. I am having a good pregnancy, I just..wish you were maybe enjoying it more as well.

[emiliamacfarlane]

and I feel like I'm giving that to you right now, and if you find someone else that can make you as happy as I can, I want you to go for it. But, I know you're different, and you'd always at least have me in mind, I suppose. I just, I'll change the subject. And I just miss her, a whole lot. I wish I could of introduced you to her, and to just let you know each other, I know you would of loved her, and I know she would of loved you. I wish she could of met my child, and her second grandchild-

Besides, when you die i will be old and taking care of our kids and grandkids. That's all I will need after you, because it's always going to be you. I love you and I'm staying with you working through all the good and the bad times together. I wish I could've known her too. But I know she'd be proud of your and love our little growing family. I've told you. I do love her. Not I would've, I do because through you I feel like I already know her.

[emiliamacfarlane]

So, you asked me what I've been thinking about. I know I should've told you it a while ago, but I didn't. Alright, here goes. I'm pretty sure you know by now that I miss my mom, a whole lot. And with this situation with my father, I just feel like it was all just a lie, that he was looking for an easy way out of a situation. And I'm actually just terrified that if I were to die you'd move on fast, although I wouldn't blame if you did, because hey, how would I know right? You deserve to be happy-

Babe, I know you're hurting and I am hurting for you. I am here for you and I know it's not the same, but I'm trying to just be here for you. So I thought right..you are scared that will happen to us. My love, I married you. We didn't say until death do us part because even then I'm going to grieve and love you, with your ashes always with me. I'm not going to find anyone else simply because I can't understand people who do that. To me it's just a sign they can't be alone.

[emiliamacfarlane]

I just.. you're carrying a little life inside of you for nine whole months, and I don't get to do that. No matter what, I'm just the sperm that fertilized that egg and that is my child, but I'll never have the same bond you have with Newt.. what if they don't even like me? What if we never get close and I'm a bad father?

Oh, babe. You know if you could carry Newt in your stomach I would let you. You're going to have that same bond. Right from the moment you feel it kick. Right from the moment when you get to hold me hand. Right from the moment you get to cut the umbilical cord. Right from the moment when you can hold our baby first and right from the moment when Newt grabs onto your pinky finger with his whole fist. 

You're not going to be a bad father, babe. If I really thought you were going to be I would not have married you. You're not going to be your own dad, you're going to figure out how to be a father, just like how I'm going to figure out how to be a mum. You will be able to bond with him or her and take care of them when they're here, like actually real and tangible.