#mackenzie's writing

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i left simply because i was afraid afraid of somebody loving me so intensely afraid of somebody caring so much it was uncharted grounds  it was the unfamiliar  and i was terrified so i left, and i destroyed us - the reality of it all // m.w

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why do you continue to check up on me the constant opening of closed doors silent messages left for me to decipher   why do you haunt me like this creeping up on me during twilight hours your grasp tight on me as darkness settles the moon illuminating my silent bedroom after we locked the doors the first time why didn’t you stay gone you should’ve stayed gone - the unanswerable // m.w

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even when we began to unravel and our fate was set you wiped my tears from my eyes kissing my cheekbone you told me then that i was the strongest person you knew always accepting the challenge  but never allowing myself to talk about the hardships that i was so close, yet so distant that even when i was yours i truly only belonged to myself my head in the clouds you, the only thing holding me here eventually you grew tired of holding on becoming someone who was once my everything i was never brave enough to let it get past my lips never knowing the right words to say  but now i do and oh, how i wish i could tell you

- i wish i would have figured it out sooner // m.w

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i live for the days where the wind flies through my hair and the sky is in pretty colors i live for the days  spent with you your fingers intertwined with mine your words filling the air around us the constant race of my heart i live for the days that my body feels light that my mind isn’t trapped in darkness that i feel free the days i admire the world taking in everything the days where i feel whole - m.w // days like today

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my hand reaches across the sheets for you

and rather than pulling you close

i am left with a handful of emptiness,

the other half of my bed left ice cold

instead of harboring your warm body

yet, from miles and miles away

you’re able to leave me speechless,

breathless even

so i will hug your pillow closer tonight

breathing in what’s left of your cologne

until you return home

-traveling hearts // m.w

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the leaves are falling from the trees a bundle of reds and browns and greens the cold air begins to settle in it rests on your chest, making its home there slowly becoming a never ending shiver the color dropping from your eyes just like the dying leaves your eyes soon become as dull as the naked trees but i will swallow the sun to keep you warm holding you between my arms allowing the reds and browns and greens to continue to thrive in your eyes i will tuck away the cold for the iciness of autumn brings the falling apart and i would rather fall together - you change with the seasons // m.w

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and when you pressed your lips against mine i swear i could taste every color in the sky

- ethereal lover  // m.w

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will you love me

even when i’m trapped in the depths of my mind and turn cold for awhile?

will you love me

even when tears flood from my eyes and my lungs gasp for air for reasons unknown?

will you love me

even when i want nothing else but to sit cuddled up on the couch for an entire day, when i can’t bring myself to even shower?

will you love me

even when i’m unlovable ?

- will you love me // m.w