#madacide

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I wonder if having suicidal thoughts / being passive about your own life and death ever stops? Like will I always have some level of these feelings in the back of my mind? Will they eventually go away?

I don’t know…recently the way I’ve been phrasing it mentally is I just want to quit my life. I don’t, but I do.

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I need too much self care to have kids, and that’s not selfish. What would be selfish would be to shirk my self care and be a half-assed parent.

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We’re having a nice time down at the lake, but I’m definitely ready to go home tomorrow ☀️

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I was feelin pretty confident last weekend in Sonoma for Sarah’s bday/bachelorette 😎

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In looooove

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First 10 images when you open Pinterest are your aesthetic for lil ole me

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*to the tune of Sugar Ray’s ‘Fly’*

Iiiiiiiiiiiiii just wanna die

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Why do men feel like they can dictate what women do with their bodies. Makes me want to die.