#madameequinox

[lynnesgalaxy]

Some Christmas presents!!!

First one’s Hazel and Nanami when little, who belong to @bluebirdsandcanaries and @madameequinox respectively!!

Second one’s Avi and Sand, who belong to @mouthing-off!!

I love these kids so muCH ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[deer-head-xiris]

It's actually really sad because it was SO amazing at first! I loved listening to all the playlists for characters and such, it really gave you a feel of who the character was even more. Now it's pretty much impossible to use! It's funny how (in my area) it says there is a 1 hour limit, but it's actually on 45 minutes and they lie about it being an hour lmao

YEAH... It inspired me to create playlists in the first place, but now it’s just Such Garbage that I can’t use it. it’s super unfortunate 

[deer-head-xiris]

8tracks sure went downhill didn't it??? :c

yup, all it’s good for right now is archiving my own music. Otherwise it’s absolute garbage

[lynnesgalaxy]

"Happy popping out of the ground anniversary, Topaz!

Ok so, I know you like human culture, so I asked a human how they celebrate anniversaries.

They told me you usually buy chocolates and flowers to give to the other person. Buying flowers sounded weird because you can find them anywhere you want on this planet, so I brought you here to this field so you can see them! I went and asked a vendor how many chocolates I could get with one dollar, and they told me it was enough for a couple cookies. I think these cookies have chocolate in them, so it works, right? Well, that one does, at least. Not sure about the rest. Plus, you get cookies and chocolate! Even more kinds of food than the tradition! So happy... birthday, you said it was? Yeah, that thing! ...What're you laughing at?"

Tourmaline is a confirmed dork with no knowledge on human traditions. And Topaz' probably laughing 'cause she thinks it's adorable. 

This is my entry for @madameequinox’ contest!  (which you should all totally join 'cause both Topaz and her creator deserve the best of the best and they're the purest cinnamon rolls ever ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥)

I was actually planning on drawing this contest or not, but she posted the contest the same day I thought of this little scenario so I decided to use it as my entry anyways! Not sure if I'll do another one... If I can come up with something else, then I'll definitely will!

Soo yeaah! Dorks being cute and all! ♥ ♥

Hope you like it, Leesi! :DDD And happy birthday in a few days, Topaz!

Topaz is so precious man 💜 (pun intended)

Little reminder that commissions are a thing I do now! Check the post here!

[deer-head-xiris]

It seems to be the same person sending you those asks about being "pissy" or "salty" and quite frankly I don't understand it. Cowardly scum, sending you shade safely from behind Tumblr's anon. Have you ever thought of turning anon off? Seems like it'd help with the asks about the court too, since not many seem to ask them off anon.

I know that it’s probably just one or two people sending me the complaints and rude anons, but I don’t want to condemn everyone else to no more anon asks because of these few people. I can deal with them for now, but they’ll be blocked if this goes too far

[emeiandstuff]

madameequinox replied to your post “I’m waiting for my brother and that whole fandom’s reaction”

What fandom? o:

Homestuck

I follow some blogs here and there that ocassionally post some stuff regarding Homestuck, so I heard about the update and the comic is also about to end, so everyone’s panicking

It’s pretty fun to see my brother’s reaction about it x3

[nexuschampion]

(Ehehe, sorry, you were included in this on my activity. You do not have to participate, I understand that you are a role play blog! c:) If you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy, then send it to the last 10 people you have notes from in your activity :)

//Tumblr centered, sorry. I’ll add ONE RL thing

1. Frankieverse2. Tumblr posts about people being awesome3.Tumblr posts about awesome being being inspiring4. Awesome and deep RPs/fanfics that I have nothing to do with but love to keep track of and read5. Practicing Tae Kwon Do/Tai Chi etc.

[houses-of-healing]

I do not mind who answers this, anyone who might relate, I suppose. My name is Heather. I’ve been here several times, before, though I’m unsure of any of you remember, it’s been a long while. I was brought up in a Christian home and went to an itty bitty, teeny tiny little private school. The most students there ever was in the whole school was 13. As it was... the entire school was almost all family to each other, I think there were three of us who were not related somehow. Because of (1/8)

that, there was a lot of favoritism there in the school for the teachers’ and principal’s children and grandchildren. When I wasn’t dealing with that favoritism at school, I was dealing with it at home. The result has left me insatiably bitter, and also very, very jealous. I am a horribly jealous person, I can admit that, and I don’t want to be, but… You see, with that little of children in the school, I had only one friend. We were supposed to be friends with ALL our classmates and be (2/8) one big freaking happy group of sunflowers (-rolls eyes for eternity.-), but to be honest… most of them were the teacher’s children and thus kind of crappy, or they really, really young (the school when from Preschool to 12th) or… mentally handicapped, which nothing is wrong with, let me clarify. I was nice to them, but they were not my… super duper bestest friend in the whole world.. you know? No one was, no one has ever been. But I did have one friend, at least, though it was a (3/8) stiff friendship. Don’t get me wrong, I loved her dearly, still do, but I never felt like I could open up to her, or tell her anything in the world, because I was afraid she would start to dislike me and I would lose my only friend. I still visit with her often and I still feel that way. Anyways… Now that I’m graduated, I work at the Public Library, but most of my days are spent online, writing and role playing.. I have met many great people online, people I just love to pieces. Now these(4/8) friends… these friends I would tell everything. But… they always go away, that’s the nature of online friends, I suppose. There are three whom I have grown to love very dearly (The foremost being Tireless. It is a role play site. He plays Legolas, I play as Daenerys Targaryen). Tireless is great, really, everything about him is just… anyways, I know people have more than one friend. Of course. They aren’t like me. But I only ever had one friend in my entire life, you see? So when (5/8) other people talk to the people I have grown so attached to, it hurts. It’s stupid and selfish and ugly, but I get so.. I get angry, not at my friends, but at their friends; territorial, like. Like, “No, this one is mine, my friend, my own, go get talk to someone else.” Then I get angry at my friends. And then I get depressed, thinking that my friends really don’t care about me at all, and then I start distancing myself from my friends… And then they say something sweet to me and bring me(6/8) back, and that makes me feel like a terrible, ugly, horrible person for ever thinking anything horrible about them. It’s a vicious cycle and it makes me so sad, and so angry, and so utterly, completely hopeless. I’m constantly afraid no one actually cares about me at all and I just.. I know this must sound so horrible of me, I know.. I don’t want to be this way, I want to trust people, but…. you know. I don’t know, do you have any advice? Because sometimes I feel like I should just give (7/8) up actually talking to people out of character, and just write, and that’s it. Not get close to anyone. Because I’m just really… tired of feeling unwanted. (8/8)

Dear Heather,

Thorin Oakenshield at your service. I don’t find it surprising that you are distrustful of people and their friendship after what happened to you. Things that we experienced as children tend to form our emotions and behavior a lot, often much more than we would like. And unfortunately, the person you are hurting the most is yourself. Heather, there is never a guarantee that someone will not desert you, but neither is it so common that we need to be on guard every second. You may find this strange, but I really recommend that you take your troubles to a professional- a counsellor or therapist, at least for a while. You may laugh- since this is clearly not an issue of your mental health- but it pains me to see how much less joyful your life is due to your inability to trust in your friends. Don’t give up. Please trust me when I say that relaxing more can be learned, and is well worth it. You stand to gain much from it. Even I, who am certainly a distrustful person in general, do trust those close to me. And don’t hate yourself for being the way you are. You could not help it- you can only start to work on changing. I wish you the best of luck in this.

Pleas come and talk to me any time you like, my friend!

Yours,

-Thorin Oakenshield