#maddoxpov

[alucywarner]

another pov

[FOR REFERENCE: So, punched in the stomach look, and all that, right? Stovie and Maddox have headed back to the former’s apartment, having been silent the whole way there, because, 1. Maddox doesn’t want to hear Steve’s damn implications, and 2. He was honestly too busy thinking about that drunk girl to have a proper conversation. 

Once they arrive at the apartment, Maddox is heading straight to his favorite couch that will become his one and only bed sometime soon, Stove is not heading to his room, as Maddox HOPED he might. Nope, Stove has more questions that he would like to ask. You’re not getting out of this one, ol’ Maddie. He’s gonna come sit on the couch with you. He’s gonna give you a look. He’s gonna try to say something. Maddox says NAH, with a hand.]

Don’t even fucking think about it.

Don’t think about what?

Don’t.

So, I’m not allowed to ask you why you were in that girl’s house for so long? 

EXACTLY.

You just dumped her in her room, right?

Yes. 

So, why’d that take so long?

Listen, Stove. Fuck o f f.

[An annoyed face at the ‘Stove’, but that’s not enough to stop him.] You looked pretty mesmerized in that backseat~. 

I’m gonna mesmerize your face if you don’t shut the hell up.

You were running your fingers through her hair, dude. 

I was not!

I saw it happen. 

Trick of the light.

Mhm, sure. Why’d you look so traumatized coming out of her house? 

Maybe I was just winded from carrying a person up a flight of stairs??

Winded, traumatized-- not the same look. D’something happen in there~?

I’m honestly gonna fucking axe kick you in a minute.

Why are you acting like it’s such a big deal, hm?

She kissed me, alright??? Her drunk ass kissed me while I was in there. Jesus. Get off my fuCKING BACK NOW.

And a kiss had you that shaken? Really?

I have a ~girlfriend~.

Oh, sure. That’s why you look like you were socked in the gut. Because you’re worried about ~cheating on your girlfriend~, like you’ve never done it before in all the time you’ve been together. Right. I believe that.

I don’t think I understand what you’re trying to get at here.

What’d I tell you earlier?

I do not fucking like her! 

Ya don’t, huh~? 

No.

So, what’d you do when she kissed you then? Did you push her away~?

[A scoff.] I’m saying I don’t like her. Not that I’m an idiot.

But if you’re so worried about ~Harley, why wouldn’t you push the closet girl away~? Ya know, since that’s why you looked the way you did when you came out. 

I told you she’s just a girl, okay? Nothing special about it. I just-- didn’t expect her to kiss me. That’s all. Fuck.

I bet you also didn’t expect to smile so adoringly down at her while she slept with her head in your lap either, did ya?

I didn’t pick where her head fell. 

Mhm, just like you didn’t pick to take her home.

Carmen fucking told me to, okay?

You never listen to Carmen. 

SORRY FOR BEING A FUCKING GOOD PERSON?

Is it so hard to admit you like that girl? Like, really? You wouldn’t keep giving her the time of day if you didn’t have feelings for her, dude. I know you too well. 

Fucking--... Having a crush is not the same damn thing as being okay with having sex with someone.

And, as it seems, you aren’t having sex with her. What’s the only option left, am I right?

Would you just go to sleep now? Holy shit.

Sure~. [He’s up off the couch and walking away, but here, it’s my favorite thing, the final word before walking off.] Sweet dreams, Romeo~.

FFFFF- [He throws a pillow at him. Yup. Maddox is a big liar, and we all know it. Okay. The end.]

[alucywarner]

another pov

[Yup, classy, creative titles with Parrish. You know how it is. Here we have it. The promised Maddox POV posts begin here. I’ve already said what this one would be, and here we have it. We’re gonna start off here~.

However, we begin towards the end of this journey. My little Maddox has already done all of his apologizing. Lucy deserves better than what he’s being trifling at. You know the story. WE BEGIN HERE. INITIATE MADDOX POV.]

[Yes, Maddox is confused af, as mentioned in the base post. A kiss on the cheek? A cheek kiss is a confusing kiss, because WELL, IT COULD BE TAKEN IN SO MANY WAYS. It could be friendly, it could be romantic?? What was he supposed to take out of this? 

So, he’s staring, and yes, he’s got literal ‘????’s above his head, and then she smiles a real, genuine smile as she thanks him, and tbh, his heart literally skipped a beat. Full-on, he could’ve gone straight into cardiac arrest. Then, dang it all, she giggled. She actually laughed at him, and nothing had ever sounded so beautiful to him. He was, well, moonstruck is the only way to put it. 

And normally Maddox was really good at presenting some sort of front based on how he wanted to be seen, and what he wanted to keep from other people, but being as dazed as he is right now, looking at this girl in front of him that’s smiling and laughing and kissing his cheek and whatnot, his mouth seems to have a mind of it’s own. And we got what we got.]

Your smile is really pretty. 

[Which, BANG, CRASH, SCREEEEEEEECH. What the hell did we just say? Why has our mouth betrayed us so? His mind was backtracking so hard as soon as the words escaped him, because no, we cannot say things like that. That’s showing our hand far too much, and it doesn’t really matter if Lucy Warner is literally the most beautiful girl we’d ever laid our eyes on, we are just NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY IT OUT LOUD. Nothing of the sort.

So, it can’t just be our mind that backtracks, and we have to backtrack out loud, quickLY.] 

I mean, as far as smiles go... [Yeah, that’ll do. That totally works.]

[And, oh God, Lucy’s face. HER FACE. She looks so confused and shocked while she’s stuttering out her thanks. He can’t see his own face, but he’s pretty sure it looks dAMN similar to Lucy’s. Eyes bugged, jaw slack. Yup, he was mortified with himself.

So, what’s he do now? Well, we know that already.]

I’m gonna… let you do whatever it was you were doing… now. Bye.

[And he, as I put it, sprouted wings and flew out of the library. But that’s where it ended before. We just saw Lucy smile a cute little smile, and it was all over. But no, Maddox did not see that cute little smile. 

He was out of the library in about five seconds, and his heart was going about a THOUSAND MILES AN HOUR, and he was mentally beating his own face in, because what the HELL had he even just said? An apology, sure, that was fine. Apologies happened, and they didn’t mean anything more than just ‘I’m sorry’. ‘Your smile is really pretty’, though? That meant something on a while other level. And, again, while it was true-- he never, ever said stuff like that to anyone. It just wasn’t who he was. 

But, he’d never felt the need to tell any girl that anyway. Not even subconsciously. So, maybe it was who he was, but he’d just never found the girl to tell it to? But, SHIT, man, Lucy was just someone that he wanted in the pants of, right? That was all it was. 

But, okay,  maybe she was gorgeous... and smart... and fun to be around... and funny... and basically all-around borderline addictive to be around, and maybe he-- actually-- kinda... liked her, but thaT DIDN’T MEAN ANYTHING, RIGHT? He’d never lost his cool enough to say something like ~pretty~. He didn’t call anyone pretty

So, what changed? What made his dumb mouth say that stupid shit?

It wasn’t... because...

I’d say he was nigh upon this revelation when he gets back to his locker, and his ~girlfriend is there waiting for him.]

Where the hell have you been?

I don’t know. Around?

Around who?

Steve. [A shrug.]

Oh, Steve. Right.

You’re gonna get jealous of Steve now? Come on, woman.

Call me woman again, and I’ll break your nose.

Yeah, sure, cool.

Don’t give me a reason to be jealous, and I’ll stop being suspicious. How about that~? [A bitchy smile. Bet.]

What the hell have I done, even? 

Oh, please. 

I get it. Steve’s the hottest chick in school. You have all the reason in the world to be jealous. [THE SASS. An eye roll.]

You know this isn’t about Steve.

[YUP. HE KNOWS. And, honestly, the further he gets into this conversation and his revelations that he might be trying to come to still, the more he realizes that maybe you really do have a reason to be jealous and/or suspicious, Harley.] I thought you dropped that like, a week ago. Ya know, after you punched her.

I’ve dropped it if you’ve dropped it~.

I never picked it up to begin with.

Mhm. Better be true.

[And yikes, that happened. And maybe just now he’s realizing just how different this feels. Because he used to think that a kiss was a kiss, and it didn’t matter who was doing the kissing, it was just going to be that-- a kiss. 

Because, yesterday, when he kissed Lucy, there was so much more to it than just a kiss. There was something in kissing her that kickstarted his heart into a dang gear he didn’t even know existed. And, GOD, he felt like he could kiss her once and never stop for the rest of time. 

Right now, with Harley’s lips on his... he didn’t feel a damn thing. In fact, he didn’t feel a damn thing when he was with Harley at all, or anyone else for that matter. 

So, his mind is called back to that smile from earlier-- that beautiful-ass smile. No, he could look at it forever, my dude. And, really? Honestly? That’s all he wanted. 

And shit. There went the revelation. It felt different because, fuCK, this was love, wasn’t it? This was what love felt llike. 

Damn it all, he was in love with Lucy Warner. DAMN HER, because he wanted to kiss her and only her for the rest of his whole fUCKING LIFE. He LOVED her. He was IN LOVE. 

Clearly, this newfound knowledge is gonna cause him to draw back from Harley’s crazy lips. She’s offended that he’d even do this.]

Excuse me?

I’ve... gotta... go.

What???

Class is... class.

Class. Since when do you go to class, Maddox?

Since I don’t want fucking detention, okay? That’s since when. Now-- I’ll talk to you later, I guess. Bye.

[TBH, he’s sprouted wings again, and he’s flying off. No, this asshole isn’t going to class. He’s going to go sit his ass on Steve’s couch while Steve’s here, and he’s going to mull over the fact that he’s in LOVE, and how much that really, REALLY sucks for him. 

And here we see why Harley does the clinging. Maddox is just a shit hider of feelings to everyone but Lucy. Okay. The end.]