May 17, 2015
I either want the sadness inside of me to eat me whole and stop my heart. Or I want my hope, and love to become a reality.
Whatever fucked up mess I've become
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I either want the sadness inside of me to eat me whole and stop my heart. Or I want my hope, and love to become a reality.
Whatever fucked up mess I've become
Let patience fill my soul, let hope fill my heart, let love conquer the sadness, and do not give up. Maybe one day, it will all work out.
Pieces of me
It's not even just my heart that's broken anymore. It's me. I'm broken. And I can't fix myself.
The pieces left of me
Please give me one last chance to be yours
My soul, my heart, my mind, my body, me.
All I want to hear, from your lips, is that you are in love with me, and that you'll never let me go.
Heart
It sucks you know. Losing yourself in a person only to have them disappear. And the sad reality is that they will continue life knowing that they stole parts of a person that they can never return. And it hurts you know. Losing yourself. Giving yourself to someone. But at the end of the day, it changes you. May it seem for the worse, it will ultimately be for the better. Don't let the pain stop you. Because awaiting you may be something even better than the last. Continue moving through life and thank every person and every experience that has shaped your understanding. Ive been through hell and back multiple times and I'm only 17. I'm sure I'll end back in this hell hole multiple times. But I refuse to live here. I'm okay to move on. But some part of me will always be in love. Some part of me will always hope for another chance. If things are meant to be it will be. All I can do now, is fall in love with parts of my life that I had once lost.
My shattered soul
And even if it may seem like everything is normal, It’s not. It’s an illusion I created so everyone can resume to be happy. I don’t want to burden people anymore. But I’m still not giving up on the one I love. Cause thats not who I am.
All I ever did was try to make you happy. I helped you with anything and everything you needed, I gave up my time and love for you. You hurt me. You hurt me over and over again and you didn't even realise. But I followed your rules. I did what you asked because I'm in love with you and I wanted us to try again. I did everything within my power for you to know you're loved and cared for; and that no matter what, I would be here for you. And all I get in return is nothing but your hatred for me. No words, nothing. And yet I'm still here. Waiting for the day we will become one again. Hoping that by some miracle, you and I can try again. And I pray. Oh lord do I pray, for us. Things will happen within their own time, and I feel that one day, we will find our way back to each other. Even just as friends. But I still have hope. That we'd be more.
My thoughts, my heart, and my soul.