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(She gasps as if she’s out of air when it’s finally time to wash this accursed mask off.)
(Until she looks back at her phone. She still hasn’t answered.)
(Dammit. Ruru would know what to do. Her parents would know what to do. Apollo, Sifu, Boss, literally anyone else but her would know what to do. Or at least, what they did would turn out okay.)
[txt] i think i have an idea of what you mean about being ready to want to let others know
[txt] you mean regardless of consequences right?
[txt] shits only complicated on my end bc i let it sit for so long anyway, but i dont really know HOW to start talking about it
[txt] i thought it was better to just keep things under wraps but thats clearly counterproductive, but i dont know how to move forward correctly without help
[txt] i mean i dont know if i can even trust myself when i say “im ready”
[txt] bc i really thought i was ready to start talking things through before and the second i think things are starting to go south i get knocked on my ass
[txt] i want to be ready so bad, but ill be honest im scared shitless of making things worse when i shouldve just kept my mouth shut in the first place but couldnt even manage that
[txt] even when i try to be careful and think im doing something right, i find some new way to ruin everything i touch
[txt] i dont even mean that to be self-deprecating or coy or whatever, i mean that just looking at every time ive screwed up in the last three years alone
[txt] i have to keep trying but shits hard to navigate you know?
[txt] and i cant exactly keep making the same mistakes, theres only so much that will be tolerated
[txt] believe me i know that its hard. if theres anything i understand its that nothing comes without work
[txt] i guess my answer is, “i think im ready, but i need to ease into it before anythings set in stone”
[txt] if thats not okay or it means im not actually ready from your view, i understand, i just
[txt] i dont want to mess things up with you too.