Like you fought for your life
Your stain-free white cotton
The bleaching white of uniforms
Line up and say good game
Every breath with shrapnel
I remember the days of running
She tells me to know my body
And being carried off the field in pure bliss by my teammates
Maybe its a glimpse of fame
When the ball hits the frame of the net
When you’re actually celebrated
Because you do something that benefits others
Not because they truly care about you
Not because you’re memorable
But because you’re so forgettable
They didn’t realize you were gone for a year
You were out sick for months
Your eyes still mimic those of a raccoon
They didn’t flinch when you were hurt
When your jaw was crushed in practice
When you stopped coming to practice
When you stopped talking in the group chat
When you didn’t sign up last year
When you were no longer at the games
Because it was never about your ability
It was never about how far you’d come
Never about what you’d endured
Never about the liquid in your lungs
The popping balloon lungs
The broken tree branches of ribs
Premie could never compete
But when you finally could It was all about status
Was a body that could do the same
And actually have the same outcome as others
All you ever wanted was to be able to run with dad
Or chase the pigeons on the street
When you couldn’t play kickball Or soccer Or run the mile
Just like the other kids Just be like the either kids
Oh how I wish I could be like the other kids
Not the exceptional goalie
Not the incredibly flexible gymnast
For what its worth I have it better than many
And i’m grateful I’ve got legs and arms
And they all seem to work
I’ve got a neck that turns
And a working spinal cord
That’s more than my mom can say
My main holdbacks are my lungs
Not my funds Not my fears
I’ve got just two pills to take a day
No heart attacks, no dementia
That’s more than my grandma can say
And i can breathe at night
Unless my allergies are too bad
My milligrams are only 10
That’s more than what my dad can say