I’m Only Me (When I’m With You)
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John can’t seem to bring himself together as he stands under the warm water as it drips over his face and down his big ears. It slips in rivulets down his nose and makes him close his eyes again. The scar tissue around his right eye pulls when he squeezes them closed tighter. He can hear Johnny’s quiet deep rumbling voice off to his left. He’s become accustomed to people standing on his left side now, where he can see them clearly.
He jumps so violently when a hand touches between his shoulder blades that his arm almost swings out on instinct until he smells spicy spearmint and his shoulders drop before he feels a strong but gentle hand pushing down on his bicep.
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*a rewrite of my original mama john piece, abo style, with more angst. because I can do what I want*
as always, thank you to @steviewicks45 for being my beta. you honestly deserve a raise for the shit you put up with from me