#mango updates

[celestialmango]

Progress notes, I have been released from the hospital. Now recovering at my sister's apartment where it's quiet and less stressful.

[tokyo-debunker-idk]

GOD I HATE WRITING SMUT IT'S SO HARD IT'S SO ANNOYING UGHHHHH

[celestialmango]

Still alive and somehow, through sheer fucking luck, i have minimum-wage job now and am scheduled for orientation. I'm still in shock but am starting to feel like i have room to breath.

[celestialmango]

We're having to put my cat down

[celestialmango]

Called the vet and thanks to some friends I was able to make other arrangements with a different place for cremation for less than what the vet wanted, we're picking my cat's body up today to take her to be cremated.

[celestialmango]

It is almost midnight but I am proud and feel the need to share this cause it gave me a few drops of needed dopamine. I made bread.

From scratch, with yeast, and I feel proud that my first attempt was not bad, kept making mistakes and telling myself to trust the process and looked up tips and asked my aunt for advice cause she baked alot.

This is my first scratch loaf. Also tried to start a sour dough starter and I think I may have fucked up and he may be dead because he was next to the stove and the jar got a little hot. I will see if the morning if I didn't accidentally kill the starter.

May have named it too soon.

[celestialmango]

I'm still alive, but my therapist says I'm burnt out....

Honestly that tracks. My offline life is currently awful and I'm just exhausted all the time now.

[celestialmango]

Secondary update, I wish to be held gently in the hand of a giant like a little doll and be pet on the head and have my hair played with by said giant and be treated nicely like a little creature. Maybe held while giant reads book and absentmindedly pets me in giant library with the smell of books and scrolls and candles in the air in quiet company.

Oh to be a tiny in the hands of a giant scholar who would treat me like a little treasured companion.