Jun 15, 2024
i think the reason say i love you without actually saying the exact words is because i’m scared to love. ‘i luv you’ ‘luvs ya!’ = i’m too scared to open my heart to you until i know you’re going to stick around. too fearful of abandonment that i won’t shed my cocoon until my environment is prospering and i’m growing into something more golden and pleasant. i could never despise your beauty but i can question your heart,, i’m allowed to be weary and afraid. i’m allowed to be suspicious. my heart strings aren’t guitar strings, you can’t just string them as much as you please, they’re sensitive. don’t touch me don’t start fires on my skin if you’re not going to keep the fire going.