#marienarosa

[conquer-your-waves]

It might have been a long time but you still control me

my thoughts

my actions

my words

two sanwhich baggies filled with regret

and two slices of bread each

and some mayo

and some turkey

one with a bite

the other disgust

[conquer-your-waves]

You series

Its been many years

and many men

since I found You

and You is anyone

its all of you

You is someone

that I never knew

You is my savior

and You is my home

You is someone I have always been searching for

since the moment of my first breath

to my first conscious thought

you are comprised of everything I've known

and You have evolved with me

and You will keep evolving

even after I find You

[conquer-your-waves]

at this point thinking of you makes me physically ill.

its not that you lied really

i think you thought, you were doing the right thing.

but,

it wasn't

because I need a goodbye

to ease this ache

and I am lost

[conquer-your-waves]

It would feel good to eat It would feel bad to eat And I would hate myself for feeling full It would be deadly to gain And I could be dead if I lose I am in a catch up catch back catch 22 I am lost But I know where I am I just cannot be found And I am hungry

[conquer-your-waves]

A warm hunger bubbling in my tummy It is pulling at a part of me I hush it, I pray The growling will wake a monster Slumbering in my mind It will rumble and destroy the ground I have made And shatter my core But I can feel him stirring I can feel his wake And the bubbling is louder And the rumbling is harder now And I pray

[conquer-your-waves]

I guess call me because I need closure and I thought I was over.

[conquer-your-waves]

She was out of town So we sat in your car It was hot and stuffy It always rained when we met I'm was always in edge But god I was so calm It was a perfect middle We would park and talk for hours I will never forget But I was young then Babysitting my cousins You lived across the street Little did I know I would be drunk in your arms years later, five almost. I remember thinking you were cute Fate it may have been Or a condemnation I guess Because we were almost loved AnD I could have rubbed you and begged Because nothing felt as passionate as that kiss, after you called me a slut and awkwardly rubbed my clit Over the middle consol In a hot and stuffy car In the rain.

[conquer-your-waves]

I can feel ednos at the bottom if my stomach It is coming for me It is rising up through my chest And it feels good I crave you.