I just wrote a huge thing about how much all you tumbler family mean to me and how I love you so much and all the fucking emotions from today and tumble app ate it.
But thank you.
I don't even have the energy left to eat or shower or even sleep after today's festering clusterfuck. I'm so painfully exhausted that I can't calm down enough.
But I really appreciate the messages of support you sent. Like I don't think you realize, I've never had support or a community of people who understand before. And it means so much to me that I can be completely honest about my shit and not have to pretend to be 'strong' and 'coping' and 'functional'. It means so much that I don't have to explain what I mean or provide proof in the form of pushing myself to the point of injury or permanent damage for you to believe me.
And I didn't realize how much I needed it.
It doesn't sound like much but even just those virtual hugs and hearts, they make such a difference. Knowing people care and don't see me as a failure or a burden for not being able to cope.
So thank you. I love you all so much