Changes, Changes, Changes….
As I’m sure a lot of you have noticed, I’ve been offline a little more recently. And, well, there’s a reason for that.
Now, before any of you freak out, I’M OKAY. I just have a lot going on right now. Between school, personal issues, and currently struggling with my place in the world, I’ve had some time to rethink some aspects of my life. And, I’ve decided to take a little break from shifting. I know I was already sort of on a break, but it was more of a break from attempting to shift, not a break from shifting altogether. However, this one will be. Shifting found me in a time when I was struggling a lot, and it’s been with me ever since. But recently, it’s just felt like it’s been weighing me down. I’ve been missing out on a lot of opportunities in my life and letting myself bedrot because, quote, “Shifting is real so it doesn’t matter”. But it does matter. This reality is as real as any others. But most importantly it is my home reality. And I need to take care of it. I can’t just use shifting as a backbone. It can’t just be an excuse for letting my mental health spiral and allowing myself to stay isolated because of anxiety. I want to experience. I want to have the kind of life that I can come back to. I want to get into a relationship, a real relationship, one that lasts for a long time. I want to make lifelong friends, more than just the ones I already have. I want to have a future, and not be stuck in the same boring town all my life. And I’ve realized that revolving one’s life around shifting, and treating it like it’s the only thing that matters, is not healthy. And sometimes, it just makes your mental health worse. You focus so much on the life you could have in another reality, that you forget about the one that you could have here.
So, with that being said, I’ve decided to back away for a little bit. I will still be online, however it won’t be as often, and it will usually only be for about an hour each day. You can still interact with me, and send me asks and dms, but I cannot guarantee that I will see or answer them right away. Some of my moots have my Pinterest, where they can always reach me whenever they need me. But for the rest of you, I may not get back to you for a little while. The best thing for me right now is distance, and it’s time that I stop avoiding reality just because it’s not the only one.
So, with that said, this is Mars parking their spaceship, and letting themself drift among the stars. Good luck to you all.