Day: 30 Royal Guard Loki x FTM!Reader
TW:Dead name,transphobic parents
“Your highness the king has requested your presence in the dining hall” One of the guards informed you,you gave him a nod and dismissed him. Quickly changing before heading to the dining hall,you found your parents and your two sisters already sitting there. Your mother quickly noticed the new bruise on your arm.
“Have you been practicing with that sword again?”She asked,her tone filled with disgust. You didn’t respond,knowing if you did she’d find something else to complain about. There was a moment of tense silence before your father stood up.
“I’ve had enough of this,you’re a princess not a prince. We let you have your fun but now it’s over. By tomorrow I expect this phase to be over”He yelled at you,everyone else was silent. You were used to it by now but then he said the words. “Because I have already promised you away” The words you knew you’d hear eventually,every princess did,but you weren’t a princess. You couldn't endure listening to him belittle you any further and quickly left.
When you got back to your room you started packing some of your things,not taking anything that you didn’t absolutely need. You were almost finished packing,when there was a knock on your door. You quickly rushed to hide the bag,before answering the door. Both of your sisters stood there,they looked a bit hesitant before asking.
“Can we come in?” You backed away,letting them both in. “Are you leaving?” Lilian asked.
“I can’t stay here,I’m sorry. But if I stay I’ll be trapped for the rest of my life”You hugged both of them. “I really don’t want to leave you two. I love you and I hate having to do this”
“Y/N we understand,we’re not here to stop you”Rosalie stepped closer to you,she handed you a small box,inside it was a necklace. It was a silver chain with a ring on it,both of your sisters' names etched on it. “We’re going to miss you”
“Don’t worry,I’m sure we’ll find each other again someday”
It’s been two years since you left your family,during that time you finished your transition. No one that met you recently had a single idea,you had never been happier. During that time you had also traveled to Asgard,joined the royal guard and saved Loki which ended up with you being his new guard. Everyone told you that there was no way he’d accept that,but surprisingly he didn’t seem to mind. He was never hostile with you,he was nice to you, sometimes it sounded like he was flirting with you. And you’d be lying if you said you didn’t have a crush on him.
Odin had asked all the guards to be extra vigilant,since some royal family was visiting. You had been sticking closer to Loki and he didn’t mind,he trusted you more than anyone since he knew you’d do anything to protect him. The day they arrived everyone gathered in the throne room to greet them,as usual you were standing beside Loki. The second they walked in and you saw them,it started getting harder to breathe. Your family,they looked mostly the same but they didn’t seem to recognize you,or they didn’t really pay attention to you. With every step your father took closer,it was getting harder to breathe and your hands started shaking slightly. You felt Loki’s hand on yours,making you turn to him.
“Are you alright?” Your hand started shaking even more and you couldn’t breathe,you couldn’t even answer his question.
“I’m sorry my prince,you’ll have to excuse me”
“Go ahead” You left calmly,not looking at them or saying anything. Thankfully the halls were empty since everyone was busy protecting their guests. You practically fell to the floor,crying and breathing heavily. Gripping your hair you started shaking again,but this time you were worried about your sisters was your father planning on doing the same thing to them. You felt someone’s arms around you. “Y/N it’s okay,I’m here just breathe”Loki had his arms around you,his fingers through your hair. You held onto him tightly,crying into his shoulder.
Later that night Loki asked you to come to his room,you assumed to talk about what happened earlier today. You weren’t sure what you could say,you’d probably just have to tell him the truth. Standing in front of his door,your hand hovered over the door. Finally you knocked,he opened the door and let you in. He seemed nervous,which you didn’t expect,maybe this wasn’t about you.
“My prince, are you alright?”You asked, breaking the silence.
“There’s something I’ve been wanting to tell you. I just want you to make me a promise,that what I’m about to say won’t change anything between us” You started to freak out ‘Did he know? How did he find out?’
“Of course. And I have something to tell you too” It didn’t matter whether he knew or not,you’d rather he’d hear it from you than someone else.
“Me first. Ever since that day when you saved me,I was so happy that you cared so much about me. To the point where you jumped in between me and that dark elf,you saved me barely knowing anything about me. I highly doubt anyone else would’ve done what you did. Just seeing how much you cared,I realized that I like you. I’ve never said this to anyone before and I never thought I ever would. Y/N I love you” The last part made your heart hurt,did he really think that no one would love him?
“Loki”He quickly corrected you
“Loki There’s something I need to tell you and I understand if you don’t want me after hearing this”
“Y/N there’s nothing you could say that would make me not want to be with you” You sat down on his bed,he sat down next to you.
“I’ve never told anyone about my past,it’s not something I want to remember. I wasn't always like this,I-I was born as a woman.”You paused,waiting for his reaction but he didn’t seem to care. “I quickly realized that I was a man and told my family,as you can probably tell they didn’t take it well. I changed my name and took up stuff like sword fighting. My parents didn’t like that,they stopped me from sword fighting and put me into what they considered ladylike. They kept referring to me by the wrong name and telling other people to do the same,telling them that it’s just a phase. Always introducing me as their daughter,even when the person they introduced me to could clearly see that I wasn't a woman. The only thing that got me through was my sisters,they always corrected people when they got my name wrong.”
“They must’ve really liked you” You reached to the ring on your necklace.
“They did. I just dealt with my parents but one night two years ago,we sat down for dinner and my father started talking about how he arranged to marry me away to someone. That night I snapped,I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew that if I didn’t leave I’d be trapped for the rest of my life” As you finished talking,Loki wrapped his arms around you.
“I’m sorry you had to go through that,I can promise you that as long as I’m here no one will dare say anything about you”He let go of you,leaving one arm around your shoulder.
“So you still want me?”He moved his arm,pulling you closer to him.
“Nothing would change that”You kissed him,moving closer. There was a knock on the door,making you pull away. Loki got up and answered the door,you recomposed yourself and stood behind Loki.
“Your highness, will you be joining our guests for tea?”He turned to face you,you just nodded.
“Yes I will and so will Y/N”He closed the door and walked up to you. He kissed you again,letting you wrap your arms around his waist. He only pulled away when both of you were out of breath. “Y/N I promise you if I find them I’ll make them pay for all the pain they caused you” You didn’t say anything about that,you just let go of him.
“You should probably get ready”
“You too,you’re joining me right?” You didn’t exactly wanna tell him who your parents were,but you didn’t want to disappoint him.
“I don’t know,they’d probably think it’s weird for the royal guard to be sitting with them”
“First of all you’re my guard and as I just said no one will dare say anything about you”
“Okay,I’ll join you”He gave you a quick kiss.
“Loki”He stopped,turning to look at you “I love you too”
Through the entire tea,you avoided looking at your parents. Loki wanted you to sit down with them but you convinced him otherwise.Your dad was talking about something but you only caught the tail end of it.
“So when do you wanna start planning for the wedding?” You froze,was he doing the samething to your sisters? You knew that he wanted some sort of alliance with Asgard,apparently this was the only way he knew how. You couldn’t say anything but you didn’t have to.
“What wedding?” Loki asked.
“That’s been called off,I asked you here to talk about it”Thankfully Odin spoke up,and you knew your father wouldn’t dare say anything to him. Suddenly Odin asked. “Didn’t you have another daughter,D/N? What happened to her”
“She’s no longer my daughter”That moment you wanted to explode,you were never his daughter. You put your hand on Loki’s shoulder and leaned in.
“Can I talk to you,alone?”He got up and followed you taking a few steps away.
“I didn’t wanna say anything but I can’t stand it anymore. I can’t stay here,I’ll assign someone else to guard you for the rest of the meeting.” He quickly grabbed your arm before you could leave.
“Y/N What’s wrong? You can trust me with anything” You turned back to the table.
“It’s them,they’re my parents”
“What!”Loki stormed away before you could stop him,walking up to the table he slammed his hand on it. Everyone froze,you quickly tried to pull him away.
“Loki don’t” He was practically fuming as you tried to hold him back. “Loki! He’s not worth it”
“What are you talking about,what about all the years of pain and suffering he’s caused!”He yelled at you,you never thought you’d have to do this. You grabbed both his arms,he didn’t stop struggling
“Stop,I don’t want you to do this” He only stopped struggling when Lilian bolted up
“Y/N!”You let go of Loki and turned to your sister. “Y/N” She ran up to you,hugging you. Rosalie quickly did the same. “We missed you”
“I missed you too”Your father stood up,making his way towards you. Loki quickly stood between you. “Loki!”
“Don’t even try to stop me! I said I’d never let someone treat you like this and I mean it” You had no doubt that Loki would’ve stabbed him if Odin didn't step in between them. He turned to your father.
“I think you should leave”
“Fine,Lilian,Rosalie come here”He called them,but they didn’t move.
“No,we’re not going anywhere with you. Y/N was right,the night he left he said something that stuck with us. ‘If I stay I’ll be trapped for the rest of my life’”
“He was right and we’re not you keep us trapped any longer” He was fuming as he stormed out.
“So did you plan on telling me?”Loki asked
“Who your parents were?” Or that you were royalty” He asked
“I don’t know. I never wanted to see him again. But my sisters,I care about them”
“Well they can stay here as long as you want”He wrapped his arms around your waist,pressing his chest against your back and his lips onto your cheek.
