#mason-kellum

[mich-hayes]

😊🙈🙊😱 zach

@zach-gilroy

( 😊 ) a cute text

text: Look what I just found in my closet. -selfie of her in a Bruins t-shirt-

text: It was the first hockey game you took me to and you said that it was a travesty for me to think that I could go to the game dressed the way I was so you let me borrow this t-shirt and at the end of the night you told me to keep it. Gosh, I can still remember the way my heart just fluttered because it was the first time I really felt like you believed that we were a long term thing. I know that sounds silly putting so much stock in a shirt and maybe that wasn’t that kind of moment for you but I just remember you leaving the next morning and I put it on again and I have this clear vivid memory of being so completely happy. Like somehow wearing it just said I was yours and I loved it.

( 🙈 ) a text meant for someone else

text: Nooo. You come over here. I’m too comfy and you didn’t have so many complaints about my lumpy couch last time!

( 🙊 ) a text that was never sent

text: I love you so much. More than I have ever loved a person in my life. I love you for a man that loved me. I love you as a friend who I have so many moments of laughter with. I love you for you being my family because you are and I think that is why I have never been able to let you go. You were my first feeling of family after I was put into the system. And the thing about family is that it’s this connection of love that carries through time and trials. It’s a bond that can weaken and hurt at times but never really be broken. You are that for me and a part of me is grateful for that and another part wishes that wasn’t there. I always thought that having that love would be enough for us. Even after everything the last few years I think I always knew that we’d end up back together because we had this that couldn’t be broken even through every heart break. It would be you and me. You keep saying that it still can be, but I don’t know that I can let it be, Zach. I don’t know why the one time you slept with another woman when we weren’t together is what is the one time that is hurting me the most. Why I can’t just accept what is and look into what the future holds. Or maybe it’s because I have looked and I am so sorry but I don’t want it. I want you. I want my life with you. But I don’t want my life with you and Savannah and your two’s child. I know that when I meet your son that I will love him. I will love him because he is a part of you. I would treat him with the love that he deserves. I would want to somehow be family to him too because he is yours. But I will constantly feel guilty that he is also a reminder of all the times that you hurt me. Of all the times you have broken a promise to me. I will constantly feel this overwhelming jealousy that I hate myself for. That I will feel entitled in always thinking that he should have been mine but then I will see her features and your features together and feel my heart rebreak over and over again. That thoughts will plague my head of why I couldn’t have just been enough that we could have stayed together to have this family. I would have given you anything that you wanted. You know there isn’t anything I wouldn’t have sacrificed for you. I would have followed you to anywhere that you needed to be. I would have supported you through every career move everything that you faced. I can’t help but think that if you had just reached out to me instead of her that we would be headed back into the direction that we both wanted. That I wouldn’t have to feel so sad and angry. I don’t even think I am angry with you as much as just life. I know that it owes me nothing but I just didn’t think that loving a man for 8 years of my life and expecting to get to start his family with him was such a terrible thing to believe that I could have? Why am I not allowed to be selfish just with one thing? Why couldn’t I be selfish and have you fully? Growing up I just wanted a family but then we met and we fell into this deep love and I wanted our family. And I think that this is in part why this is so hard for me. Why this hurts more than anything you have done. Because I feel like I am grieving. I am mourning what I thought would be ours. Because for the first time since falling for you I can’t make myself believe in our future. I don’t want to step into something that I know is just going to hold more pain for me. I love you and want you but I don’t know how to allow myself to have you without just letting myself stay broken.

( 😱 ) a scared text

text: What if we don’t end up together? What if every moment of happiness that we find outside of each other fades and we hurt someone else because of it? I don’t want to hurt anyone else because of us. I don’t want to do to someone what has happened to me.

[lainey-dukes]

🙊🌟😱cal

@cal-tanaka

( 🙊 ) a text that was never sent

text:  I am in love with you. At least I think I am? I don’t know that I truly know how to let myself love someone that way? The only love I have ever really known is the love I have for Bennett. But I look at you and we have these moments and it’s different than I have felt. I get butterflies and everything but that doesn’t make me think that it’s love. Truthfully I think I know it’s love because it makes me sad. It makes me sad because I love being your Lainey. The way you see me but I don’t think I can always be her and maybe if I am lucky enough you’d fall in love with me too but then you’d see it. That I’m not your Lainey. That I can be selfish and ugly. That I fail all the time. Even as a mom but I don’t change because once again I am too selfish to. I feel like you’d feel like you were in this trap because you are too nice to believe that the bad parts of me are what makes me me. But then you’d get to the point that you couldn’t deny it. And this good thing we have. The purest thing I have ever experienced is forever tainted. So I am sad to be in love with you because I think it would be one of the most beautiful things to be loved by you but I would ruin it. I don’t want to lose the way you look at me.

( 🌟 ) a late night text

text: Is it silly that I miss you? I know I saw you earlier but I do. Laying here in bed I just want you with me. I don’t crave people in innocent ways but I would be content just to have you next to me. I think of silly things like you staying here and waking up to you and Bennett running in and just getting to start the day feeling happy.

( 😱 ) a scared text

text: I’m afraid that he will resent me. That he’ll hear how I kept him from his father at first and that the more time he spends with him that he will love him more. That he will want to live with him once he is old enough to understand more. His love is unconditional now but one day it won’t be and there is a chance that I am the parent that he visits because he has to. When I say I am scared of losing him it isn’t just about custody. It’s losing him and what I have with him. I fuck up a lot but he is my entire world and while it was hard to do everything myself when it was just us it was the best I have ever felt. So much of me wants to go back to that and I know that I can’t. I just don’t want him to see me as less like the rest of my family. He looks at me like I am his everything and I know that will change but what if that turns into nothing at all?

[bradley-jordan]

😭💗🙋 lily

@lily-calnan

( 😭 ) a depressed text

text: It will be ten years in the fall this year and you think after that time that you’d get fully used to your life without your dad. That one day you would stop waiting for a voicemail to pop up when you check your phone. That you won’t feel surprised when your mom asks you to carve the turkey on Thanksgiving cause he isn’t there to do it. That your instinct wouldn’t be to text him during the Cubs game. It just like stays with you. And you know there are people who even lost a parent earlier than you so you should be grateful for those years, and I am, but you can’t help but be jealous of the ones that still have their dad. That you can’t help but be a little angry when you have these big life moments without him and you are gonna have many more. Everyone always tells me how helpful I am to my mom. How I stepped up. I didn’t want to have to step up. I didn’t want to have to grow up before everyone so that when I do let my mom down it feels so much heavier than it should. Some days I just want to be that kid that ran to his dad after every game when he was home and feel like I have him to lean on and carry me back to the truck to go home. I didn’t want to be the man of the house. I just wanted to be the kid that has his dad. I just want my dad.

( 💗 ) a loving text

text: You are sunshine for a reason. Your light in you is something that everyone craves to be around. You could be having a bad day but that has never stopped you from being a light to others. I just have this vivid memory of us after school and you were having a crap day but you smiled at everyone we crossed paths with and their smiles back were genuine because that is what you do for people. You bring them light in their lives. I know sometimes that must be draining but I hope you know that you are making people’s lives better. I think I just saw that right away. I was never the guy that actively pursued someone but you were bright and joy and I needed that so badly. I needed you and I feel so lucky that you wanted me back and graced me with a chance to love you. And despite everything I hope you know I still feel lucky.

( 🙋 ) a text confessing to something

text: I am excited and ready for this new chance with you but I would be lying if I said that was all I feel. I’m worried too, Lil. That with all the complications this time around that our chances aren’t as good. That any mess ups could be permanent. I don’t want to start this to do more disservice to the love you and I have had. Because it is the most beautiful thing I ever had in my life. I don’t want to come out of the end of this if there is an end and have you think we should have left it where it was.

[sammy-contreras]

🌟🙊👀 jack

@jack-mcbride

( 🌟 ) a late night text

text: I know I said I wouldn’t be doing this but you said it was okay and I just need you. It was just all a little too much today and I know that maybe I should be calling a friend or doing what I usually do and just deal but I don’t want to be strong right now. I don’t want to be too stubborn to admit that all I want is your voice telling me tomorrow will be better.

-few minutes later-

text: If you are busy though or have your own stuff that is okay. Really.

( 🙊 ) a text that was never sent

text: I feel absolutely insane when it comes to you. I don’t do this. I know that just sounds like some cliche thing but I don’t. Every other client is just a client to me and there have been some nice ones. I don’t let lines get crossed. I am adamant about that and I don’t know when it happened with you. You were just this voice and then you were this guy that made me not want to say goodbye and I don’t know how I allowed it to happen. I don’t know when I let myself just let go and have you. But I don’t have you and that is the crazy thing about it. That I am completely wrapped up in someone who isn’t a possibility. Then I think is that why I am so vulnerable with you in a way that I am not with anyone else? And I mean anyone else. What if I do that is because I know in the end that none of this will matter? That you can hold all my weaknesses and it can’t hurt me because what will it do to my life? But then I get sad thinking that because I feel like I know that you aren’t just this safety net. That I could meet you a hundred different ways a hundred different times and we would know each one that this is something. But then logically I know that this is a fantasy. That there is one way this will be played out. You called needing something and I feel like this is going to end with you leaving and I am going to be left needing you. So how did I let this happen?

( 👀 ) a text about something he/she saw

text: There was this couple sharing a dessert. Even down to the same fork and I just rolled my eyes because 1. I would want my own damn fork. 2. I want my own damn dessert. I don’t want to fight over the last bite because I would just take it myself.

text: Then I just got jealous and thought that I’d do anything to fight over the last bite with you.

[willow-deighton]

🎫 nik

🎫 - go on a tour of a spooky location

“Don’t think I don’t know what you’re doing.” She rose a brow at Nik. The tour had barely started and they were already trailing at the back of the tour group thank’s to Nik’s-what she was sure was pretend fascination-with a portrait. “We both know that if his eyes are following you, it’s because they’re rigged to do that.” The look he shot her wasn’t exactly one of annoyance, though she knew she was being a spoilsport. She probably deserved much less patience than he was actually giving her. “Isn’t this kind of obvious even for you? I know you’re hoping I’ll get scared and hold onto you now the group is so far away, but it’s all fake. This place really isn’t haunted.” He’d only begun to open his mouth when she stopped him with a roll of her eyes. “I know, I know I’m ruining the fun, but if you don’t hurry up, we’re going to get lost in this giant house.” She held a hand out for him, telling herself she was only throwing him a bone so they could catch up with the rest of the group. “Come on. Or that suit of armor will come to life and eat you,” she let out the little tease with what could have been an amused smile, but she looked forward and started walking before he could mention it. @nik-duncan

[alexandra-march]

🧦🗑️🌊 bren

@brennan-winters

🧦 a half-asleep text

text: I don’t want to but I’m always going to love you

🗑️ a text that wasn’t sent

text: Can we start at the beginning? Can we just go back to that bar? I want to have it back. You being cocky though you’d never admit it. Me pouring my drink on you and stealing a peek at your muscles though I would always deny it. I want to live it all again. Every little argument in town. Every late night of you knocking at my door. When you first touched me. When you first kissed me. Every night in bed. Every trip we took. Every fight that we thought was the end, I want it all again. This time though I want to take in what it feels like to fall in love with you. To let my heart race not because I’m scared but because loving you keeps me alive. I want to let you pour over me what it is you feel. I want everything again but I want to do right. I want to let myself love you.

🌊 a sad text

text: I have a bottle of your body wash in my shower and it’s so stupid that I can’t get myself to throw it out. There isn’t much left in there but it’s the last trace of you that I have in my place. It’s so pathetic how I keep it there. How I take it sometimes and open it to smell it. Then I close my eyes and picture you with me. How I’d always get a whiff of that smell when you jumped into my bed and grabbed me to bring me close even if I protested. Sometimes I stand there so long the water starts to run cold but I don’t even care. It’s like I’m hoping it will numb me. It will numb this pain in my heart that is there for you. It never does though so I get out and I lay in that bed waiting for your arm to fall over me. I feel like I should move so every room doesn’t have you lingering in it. Maybe then I’d force myself to throw that stupid bottle away.

[clay-thorne]

# - jordyn

- what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone

A Nut. 

- what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone

- what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone

Hunter Hayes - This Girl

Rob Thomas - Hold On Forever

- my muse’s last text to your muse

[text] Babe babe babe babe [text] Did you know that dominos offers pizza insurance? Do you know how many pizzas i’ve dropped and they’ll just give you a brand new one. 

[rae--thorne]

beep 14, 25 - lily

@lily-calnan

A text that wasn’t sent

text: I hope one day you can fully enjoy every part of yourself openly. That you stop giving a fuck and making yourself unsure of what you like when it’s obvious. There is nothing wrong with you wanting it. It makes you feel good. It shouldn’t matter to you or anyone else if you like having a girl between your legs just as much as a guy. What should matter is that you let yourself enjoy your happiness. 

A flirty text

text: You have the sweetest little moans when I rub up against you, you know that?