brennan-winters:
“I don’t need you to stop taking steps back, I just need you to try,” he shrugged, chewing on his lip. “And I don’t think that you’re not trying. I see you’re trying, I see it every day,” he shrugged, and he did. But it didn’t stop him from thinking a lot of what she was saying was a cop out, that it was just easier for her to believe she wasn’t capable of more. “We’re doing this life together, March, and I’m not trying to fit you into some box I have. I’m trying to build it with you. To what we both need it to be. But I don’t think that’s fair,” he shrugged. “You just left, Alex. I had no idea why or for how long, you were just going,” he ran a hand through his hair. “I’m telling you that I’m okay with you taking the time, I’m just asking for a reassurance when you’re leaving with a bag packed, I don’t think it’s fair to use that to say I’m constantly asking more of you.”
“All these years and can’t you see that what we need are so far apart from being the same?” Despite what she was saying, she wasn’t trying to end them. Yes, that desire came up many times but she fought herself on it more than he knew. “What you want and what I want really doesn’t have a meeting ground. It’s just you and me constantly having to give in to the other. All you do is compromise and sacrifice and even after that the things you want still feel like too much. No you aren’t putting me in a box but can you honestly look at me, Brennan, and say that there isn’t a part of you that feels like someday this will be easier?” Her eyes scanned his. “That some day the sacrifices won’t have to be so big? And you are asking me for more whether you see that or not. I mean, God, we went from you saying that casual dating was enough to you wanting to marry me? I wanted nothing from this and you...” She was trying so hard to hold on to her emotions. “You kept making me love you and I know for a lot of people they think that how long this has taken is crazy but I don’t know how we got here.”