for the record, i still hate myself for having a crush on barbie doll. he had to sit next to me in tutorial today because he was the last one to arrive and i got so freaking nervous and anxious. like... i think he was the catalyst to the biggest anxiety i’ve ever felt since arriving at college. i was so nervous with him right next to me? like he didn’t give a fuck about me obviously, he was looking at everyone else in the tutorial who was participating and talking out loud but i’m just nervous around him. i would appreciate it if he wasn’t so close and i can’t really see what he’s looking at. i mean, i know he’s never looking at me but still. anxiety!!
talking about math i really need to go to my math teacher’s office hours on thursday. i haven’t been going for the past week because i’ve been busy and it might be fucking up the good relationship i started with him. and i think people might begin going to his hours now after i (fucking) let slip that he’s a better teacher one-on-one than in a group setting. goddamn it me you could’ve set up a good thing with him by being the only one to go to his office hours!! oh man!!!!! tung i’m here for you man!!!!!