#matryochka.

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@matryochka ― bucky & vinicia ― re: starter call.

❝ IT'S NOT SOMETHING i can just . . . forget about, ❞ he protests, & arms cross defensively over chest, though heart screams at him for closing up around her. he should know better, at least that's what he tells himself, but the allure of shuttering any possibility of vulnerability is too strong to withstand. much as he may want to, he can't forget the hurt that his hands have caused. even if it wasn't his choice, he still committed those monstrosities, & he'll have them on his conscience until he dies. ❝ i'm sorry, but i can't. you're asking something impossible of me. ❞ & he doesn't meet her imploring gaze, afraid of what he'd see there.

[peacereflecteda]

@matryochka asked: ❛ relationships are built on trust, and i trust you. ❜

it should be criminal, the way his heart skips a beat at her words. sierra six has never been one to become particularly affected by another, even when other was subject of sexual interest. for someone to speak of a relationship with him is terrifyingly new territory, but despite his reservations, he finds the thought almost exciting. vinicia is unique, completely set apart from anyone else six has ever known. she would be the one he'd settle down with, if that was a remote possibility. the lives they've known for so long now point to a different path . . . but what if they didn't have to ? what if they could break free, together, and escape the cycle of violence ? ❝ i trust you, too. ❞ the sierra agent says honestly, tone quiet but nonetheless certain. ❝ if a relationship is what you want, i'm happy to oblige. ❞ saying nothing of his own want for something stable, for someone to call his home. something he wants, but never thought he'd be able to have.

[peacereflecteda]

@matryochka asked: have you been kissed before?

her question makes his brows furrow. he wonders what might have given her that impression; that he didn't have any experience. the opposite is true, really; sierra six is used to getting down & dirty when the urge has made him inclined, but intimacy is another thing altogether. of course he's kissed people ― the kind of kisses that have faded in memory, remarkably unremarkable in their lack of emotional connection. but vinicia is different, always has been; ever since they first met, six knew it to be true. kissing her brings nerves to the forefront, makes him look like he's panicking about a first kiss ― he can't blame her for making the assumption, but his mind doubts that's any kind of compliment. he wants to say his piece about it, but only one statement rings true, so that's what he sticks to as he turns to look at her. allowing himself to be vulnerable, even if it might turn against him. allowing himself to hope. ❝ not by anyone that matters, ❞ six says finally, quirk of brow that shows his uncertainty.

[peacereflecteda]

@matryochka  asked: six is a fine number, but you should have mine.

𝐬𝐢𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐠𝐧𝐢𝐳𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐮𝐩 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 for what it is immediately; small quirk of lips shows his amusement for being hit on. soft breath escapes lips before he's clearing throat to answer, not used to this and feeling a little hot under the collar. ❝ that's a good one, ❞ he says a little awkwardly. six wonders if it's obvious that this never happens, and then wonders why he even cares if it's obvious. she's gorgeous, and she intimidates him: two reasons that she's completely out of his league. he might as well entertain it, since six is certain nothing will come out of it. he reaches in pocket, finds a pen, and offers it to her, along with his hand to write on. ❝ be my guest. ❞

[peacereflecteda]

❤️ + peacereflected

wh-- hey now. that's cheating NAXJKNSJK

okay fine uhhhh. i put a lot of work into my writing in trying to make sure every reply is perfect and that's kinda cool of me i suppose.

and as for YOU. your prose is beautiful & i love reading it tbh.