This have been going pretty well lately. I had a date with Matt the last night of tour that was just..You can tell he put so much effort into it. It was by a little lake, and he had some of his friends go set up this picnic and put up these twinkling lights on some trees. We did the whole cheesy slow dancing thing by the water and he kissed me on the forehead. He’s been so respectful in that sense since I told him about you and your father. He hasn’t pushed me at all to move any faster physically than we’re at right now. I really like that about him.
I guess going in order the next thing that happened was me meeting my dad. I think Josh was right, I had nothing to be scared of. It was awkward as heck don’t get me wrong, but I didn’t really have to do anything to impress him, he just wanted to get to know me. I didn’t have the guts to ask him about him and my mom but maybe someday. I’m glad I went through with it and met him and my sisters. Josh kept his promise and was there for me the whole time, I’m really lucky to have him and I wish he could have met you. He would have loved you so much and probably been an amazing uncle. He’s been an amazing brother so I can’t see why he wouldn’t be a million times better at being an uncle.
While I was at the Ramsay’s though, Matt threw a rock at my window and..Man this still seems like a dream to me. I opened the window and asked what he was doing there, and he was just standing there with a guitar and we talked a little bit before he played Beside You and asked me to be his girlfriend, like officially his girlfriend. I haven’t told him that he’s my actual first boyfriend and that I’ve never done this before but, I think I’m going to. I just don’t want him to think that he has to change or try harder to be the picture perfect boyfriend because I just want him, he’s already been perfect. I wish you could’ve been here to meet him.
I wish you could be here for a lot of reasons. I love you so much Jeremy, I hope Nana is taking good care of you up there, tell her hi for me.
