I have to confess, I worry a lot. I worry about pinkberry, I worry about school, I worry about my parents and about Esther, and about so many other things. However, God find this way of living foolish. So that Jesus cant help but say, "O you of little faith..." (Matt. 6:30)
Esther has recently been asking me about when am I going to purpose and when am I going to do this and that. And I know that she has many worries. I can see it in her eyes and hear it in her voice whenever she asks me. However, every time she asks me this question, there is only one thing I seem to always say to her, "Trust me." I can say this because there are thing doing in the background that she does not see. I can confidently say, "Trust me" because I know that everything that I am doing and preparing is going to one day pay off and to be honest I cant wait for that day when I look at her face and she finally understands.
I wonder if that is how God leads all of us. Perhaps, my prayers are not that different from the same questions Esther asks me: "God when are you going to answer my prayer request? What is taking you so long? Why are you not listening me?" To which, God responds with a gentle whispers, "Trust me..." Jesus finishes this teaching by saying, "Do no be anxious...for your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." (Matt 6:31a, 33)
I know what Esther wants, but I also know what she needs and what she needs is more important than what she wants. I think God looks and me and all his children the same way. He knows what I want, but He also knows what I need and what I need is more important than what I want.
