#mavaka

[mavaka]

Her hands are in my hair, Her breath bursts in the air, She covers herself, But I take her hands gently, kissing each finger, I speak to her skin, I speak to her goosebumps, My lips trace her, envelope her. her collarbones, her spine, and the dip of her stomach- and when she breathes my name,  when her back arches, when she trembles, I hold her close to me. and I know This is the end,  I know.

Mavaka

[mavaka]

I am not kind.

I am not brave.

I am the lingers of the storm that has longed past.

I am dangerous that way. 

[mavaka]

When I saw you again,

I realized that nothing had changed, the storm that lingered under my skin still shook, and rumbled. And cracked.

And Gods, I realized. I am hopeless for you.

[mavaka]

I saw someone who looked like you.

I thought it was you -- and in that spilt moment--

I knew,

I knew I still loved you.

And it scares the hell outta me.

[mavaka]

Lizzo did a DNA test, and she is 100% that bitch;

I did one for me, and it turns out I am not my fathers child.

Life is currently, a running joke.

[mavaka]

When he held me tight with His lips devowering my soul.

I felt helpless. Lost in pleasure and pain of another shuttering release.

When he entered me, pushing down my fear, my anxiety -- it was heaven.

[mavaka]

I let him have me.

In the way, most men do.

My legs trembled under his touch.

My core Shook from his mouth.

I felt alive for the first time in months.

[mavaka]

Just because these walls are made up of concrete -- that doesn't mean they arent paper thin.