#may.speaks

[burninglilys]

“i’m sorry for liking you” is the one angsty line that will ALWAYS break me.

[mrsaltyshima]

Hi.

I never really thought that I would be writing this message, but here I am.

First of all, I am truly sorry for ghosting. I am not someone who does that and hates when others do it. So I wanted to apologize for these 2/3 months which I never answered any asks, tags, or dms.

Second, as you might have already realized, I won’t use this account anymore. I am writing this with tears in my eyes, because I met amazing people doing this and deeply in my heart, I know I will regret this.

I’m not only leaving this blog, but Tumblr entirely. My life hasn’t been quite good lately, and even if this part was incredible, I can’t handle it anymore. I need to take care of myself for now.

I started “being” Tsukki because I wanted to pretend being someone I am not, but instead, I learned so much about myself and others. Which I am grateful for.

Making people happy with my blog was one of the best things in late 2020/early 2021 that happened to me. Because if I made at least only one person smile, even if was once in a lifetime, I am satisfied and completed.

That was the whole purpose of this blog.

Every word I said, of encouragement, love, appreciation, etc, was completely coming from my heart.

Don’t doubt what I told you being Tsukki (or May). You are special, you are loved, even if you don’t believe it.

This might be a goodbye, but goodbyes do not last forever.

I love you and I’m grateful that you took the time to interact with me.

You can try to forget me, but I know you won’t ;) I won’t forget you either.

Thanks to my fellow mutuals —Ella, you were always by my side. Thank you.

And thanks for every interaction, even if it was only once.

Thank you.

May <3

[burninglilys]

thinking about ji-wan and just how many times she probably teetered at the edge of the boundary between friendship and realising that she is in love with sol and that when she sees her future she sees only sol, nobody else, and how the enormity of that realisation fully terrified her so she always chose to walk behind that boundary until it became invisible.

thinking about how it was the realisation that things between her and sol are changing and the fear of sol not seeing ji-wan the way she sees sol and the fear of sol choosing someone else over ji-wan that threw her across the boundary.

thinking about the immense relief she felt at finding out that sol was already there, ready to catch her as she regains her lost footing and how terrified she still must be but also relieved and happy that she’s not alone and how her favourite person is there by her side and they can probably figure this out together, the way they always have.

[burninglilys]

heidi priebe / i promised you the moon

[burninglilys]

[burninglilys]

NO BUT HOW DID THEY MANAGE TO PUT ACROSS:

the longing in DIFFERENT FLAVOURS FROM BOTH SOL AND JI-WAN; ji-wan REALISING THAT SHE IS IN LOVE WITH SOL (and also into women); that realisation being fuelled by minor jealousy and the realisation that Ji-wan has ALWAYS seen sol in a different light than her other friends; wanting to stay away from someone you’ve been in love with + wanting to escape your feelings + choosing to stay nevertheless because being away from them is more painful than being beside them when you think they can’t hear you; a very VERY obvious display of affection; A DRUNKEN CONFESSION; A SOBER FOLLOW-UP, no denial, no hiding once they realise that things can never be changed; and then a courageous confession and a happy ever after,

WITHIN THE 0.5S of screentime they get every episode??? HOW!!! I am in awe!!!! this is peak story telling!!!!! I am in love!!!!!

[burninglilys]

muskan and tarasha — Episode 4 of Netflix's Feels Like Ishq (2021):

a sweet tale about a closeted bisexual who subtly tries telling her out lesbian colleague that she is also queer and likes her very, very much ♡

[burninglilys]

deleting dating apps because i want to meet people the old way (i fall in love with you the moment you step on my feet at a scrubb concert and i spend a year looking for just a glimpse of you only for you to find me and ask me to fake date you)