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i have created a new ao3 with the username whateverislovely and moved many of my fics (basically all of my gen stuff except the discord fic) over there. just fyi!

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I love my husband for many reasons, but one of them is that I can tell him, "I just posted the first chapter of a new story!" and even though he could not care less about fanfiction, he still always gives me a very enthusiastic, "nice!!!"

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every day my husband and I go for a walk and I listen while he infodumps about work and data and statistics and math, and then he listens while I infodump about TV and fanfiction and tumblr and podcasts, and it's lovely and perfect and I think that's the kind of relationship spencer reid deserved

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For real though, the endgame jj/reid was such a disservice to both characters. Maybe we shouldn't revive storylines that were buried 14 seasins ago. Like jj married will despite being in love with someone else, and reid never got over his "pretty lady is nice to me 🥺"-puppy crush? Okay great.

Yes! I I'm going to copy a thing I wrote somewhere else because it encapsulates my feelings about this storyline:

I do think JJ is a mean girl even if she won't admit it, and I think she believes she "loves" reid because she's always seen him as her backup.

she was reluctant to share her relationship with will with the team, it took her ages to actually marry him. She's afraid of commitment. But I think she's also afraid of being alone.

And I think subconsciously, ever since the "Red Skins" game, she's seen spencer that way - she knows he had a crush on her, and she's always thought, well, no matter what happens, spence is always there. like her "if we're not married by 40" friend, only she IS married by 40, but she still keeps him in mind as her "just in case".

and I don't think she realizes she's doing it and I don't think she realizes what a dick move it is to tell spencer, even if what she's feeling isn't actually Love, but more like...idk, security?

because for spencer it's completely different. it didn't work out with JJ. it (in my opinion) didn't work out with stephen or ethan, lila or austin. maeve died. spencer is perpetually alone, and i don't believe he loves JJ - i think he idealizes her in a similar way, like a nostalgia thing - he loved her before hankel, before maeve, before prison - and that's why he gets sort of confused after her confession.

but it's not fair of her to say those things to him because he has no one and she has everyone. she has a FAMILY. and he wants a famliy, and he's alone, and she's basically flaunting that in his face. "oh, i always loved you, but i actually have everything i want and you don't, so."

it's just so messed up but it's also totally in character for the JJ they've created who is selfish and not very nice to spencer and doesn't want to end up alone.

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got some very bad news today. positive vibes and/or encouragement would be much appreciated if you have any to spare.

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criminal minds has a lot of stressful, sad, depressing, harrowing episodes

like, a lot of them

obviously

but god the spencer and diana subplot in surface tension just

idk it absolutely destroys me in a way none of the others do

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i love alex blake because she's what i wanted to be. i wanted to go to grad school and study linguistics. i wanted to get some cool job using those skills. that was my dream for such a long time and i love that her character got to live it and we got to watch.

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I am baffled and amazed that 1300 of you are now following this blog where I mostly share other people's gifs of spencer reid and occasionally answer prompts that have been hanging out in my inbox for over 6 months

but, uh, thank you, and I plan to get more prompts done once my chapter fics have settled down! in the mean time feel free to go read those on ao3!

I love you all ❤️❤️❤️