#maybelol

[wheremyscalesslither]

No pls stahp

[podcastpissbaby]

Give me a character from a podcast and I will give you a 4 song play list for them

[words-n-stuff-for-me]

"Insert r/IAm14AndThisIsVeryDeep title pertaining to the text" (Spoiler alert: its about me wondering)

    I tend to start of my prompts with the phrase “Sometimes I wonder…” I wonder if this is just an excuse to think about the world around me instead of acting on it. I wonder if anything I do would really amount to anything so therefore I just think. Never act.

    Never just do something, be afraid. Petrified that once again my ambitions, aspirations, and goals will fail. That I will once again fall into a hole that I refuse to dig myself out of. To never return to the surface in fear that the surface harbors all my problems. To ignore the shovel I used to dig myself down and to instead look at the “What ifs?” and “Whys” that plaugue my mind everytime I step outside

         I wish I could stop wondering. I wish I could enjoy the work, enjoy the monotonous nature of life in pursuit of some kind of normalcy. To be able to force myself to fit into the mindset everyone else seems to be faking their way through. I wish I could just exist in this world and instead of wondering.

         Just do it. Such a simple phrase, yet it entails so much. Ignore your preoccupations in pursuit of something. Take every bit of willpower you have left and go for it. Just do it. Just fucking do it.

         My mother would often take my claims of not being able to do something as a lack of volition. My complaints of how being able to do things on my own really amounted to a lack of responsibility. While she may have been right on some aspects I find myself really wondering wheather or not it really is that.

         I honestly think that my ability to do things lies in the reality that I have no intrest doing the things everyone else is doing. I don’t want to submit to some notion that money is everything. That my life is already planned for me. Get a job, work till you cant and hopefully you can retire and enjoy life. Sacrifice your time, energy, soul into a task so that you may soon enjoy the fruits of life. Make some friends and keep them.

         Do something for society. I hate that idea. I never chose to be on this earth, I never consented to being apart of this rat race. When I came out the womb there wasn’t a contract I had to sign stating how I need to be. How I need to conform.

         No, I came out the womb crying. Grasping for air and wanting to be held. I come out the womb scared and unsure of who I was. Feels like ive stayed that way since then.

         So I wonder, instead of acting. I wonder instead of doing, pursuing, living because at this point. Ive thrashed around aimlessely and have gotten nowhere.

[alcoholocausts]

Ridiculous to think that if i was skinteee the 100+ guys in my inbox rn would actually want me.

[stizztroy]

#canyousaygoodasa3sum #Maybelol #thatsmyshit #thinkStizz

[toolazyfor-this-blog]

You're

You're what life is about You're the unknown, the crazy, the complete an udder madness of life The insane, the beautiful, you are scariest thing I've ever experienced and I'm loving every minute of it

[peacepyro]

Restarting Tumblr Page ~

I feel like I need to restart my tumblr page all over again and actually post things about my fun filled life on it so if you see some posts gone I apologize.

Will still keep alot of posts on there and will still reblog awesome stuff :D

- PeacePyro