#mayes yaps

[armayes]

I was rereading Army Dreamers because I am the target audience of my fanfiction always and I can't get over how proud I am of Chapter 39

I fear that I peaked here and will never get better

[armayes]

I need ppl to understand that just bc I'm yelling at the actions of a character it doesn't mean I "don't get the nuance" or "expect them to always make the right choices" I just need to yell at them for a minute that's still my blorbo but like. Charles what

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just saw a post ab tr/tf!lukey and i didn't know that the place Lukey was kept was called the Null

that, and now knowing from the QnA that Legs' powers were originally going to be called Null and not Iron...

Oh boy.

[armayes]

at some point recently i renamed my laptop and promptly forgot about it until just now

why did I do this again?

[armayes]

shelby your meeting-

[armayes]

So im picking paint colors for my room and it's gonna be green. What's funny is that I'm using Magnolia paint, which labels their paints like this

Garden Essential, Countryside, Sage Stem, and Bespoke Green?

More like

A Long Way Down, The Smell of Blood, The Uncanny Valley, and Dig

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me: hey so I have a really bad thing with large swarms of bugs, and when I took the trash out the biggest swarm of flies I've seen in my life came out and I had a panic attack

Parents: ok

*a few days later*

Parents: hey :) you know what's a good idea for something for you to do? :)

Me: what

Parents: wash out the trash cans that are full of bugs :)

Me:

Me: what the fuck

[armayes]

Just a thought but its very likely tf!legs refuses to tell people the shit going on with him, not just because he doesn't want to "burden" people, but also because due to something (Read: olsted), he has a belief that he doesn't deserve that kind of comfort and familiarity and the idea of being known like that by somebody is terrifying to him because he thinks there's this line you have to cross in a relationship with somebody in order to be allowed to do that and he just. hasn't "earned" it.

And probably thinks he never will earn it