Feb 26, 2014
im really sorry for being such a horrible person, i dont deserve to be here.
You do deserve to be here.
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im really sorry for being such a horrible person, i dont deserve to be here.
You do deserve to be here.
i don't hate myself because of the hate i've been receiving (sp?). i hate myself because of things i've done in the past. my personality. how i act. what i look like. everything else. im nothing important, just an extremely unattractive girl with low self esteem and an extremely stressful life. (does this even make sense? please let me know if it doesnt, ill gladly fix it if it doesnt.)
It makes a lot of sense and I can relate a lot. I hate my past so deeply. I'll elaborate a little, I was an addict and I hurt a lot of people I really, really care about because of my problems. I was a self centered, bitter, cold hearted person. I've done some really fucked up shit. I had a shitty childhood that I resent pretty much everyone in my family for, I've dealt with a lot of abuse, sexually, physically and mentally. It made me an asshole, but I shouldn't have let it. It's no excuse for the shit I've done to those who tried to help me. I can relate to the looks thing with the stressful life shit as well. It seems like every time I get a few steps ahead I get knocked back down, but that's where you have to make your choice. Either you let it knock you down or you get back up and keep fighting.
I get where you're coming from, but to digress a little out of my fucked up problems, my point behind telling you all this is I learned a few years ago that if I don't let it go it's either going to consume me and rule me and I'm going to get worse or I can make it better and change. Only I could do it. I decided to change and I work my ass off to make the best of everything. I did everything I could and still do everything I can to make my life better. I'm not trying to sound rude, I know it's hard what you're dealing with, but the only way you can get better is if you allow yourself to. You have to accept that life is hard as fuck sometimes, but it can get better if you allow it. You can get better.
I'm really, really sorry you go through what you do and if you want to elaborate further or just let it all out I'm here publicly or privately. I hope it gets better for you. You deserve better than you allow yourself to. I wish I had realized the same about myself a long time ago.
the amount of hate that i got today is nowhere near as bad as the amount im feeling towards myself. (i apologize if my grammar isnt the best, im tired) im starting to wish i never joined this fandom, i could have saved myself a ton of regret and negative feelings and i might have actually been worth something.
You are worth something, turn off the anony feature so you won't receive anymore. If you need to vent or talk I'm here.
im really sorry if i sounded rude in my last ask, please forgive me! im in a really shitty mood :/
No need to apologize! It's understandable.
jesus fucking christ can everyone get it throught their heads that i did NOT make a fake blog to send hate about myself. i have 2 blogs, my ac blog and my personal blog. i have no purpose of making a fake blog. (tbh i dont see why i made this one, bc no one gives a shit if i exist or not) but there is no way in hell that i would dare make a fake blog. i hope whoever made that confession sees this.
I am a person with huge anti-bullying views and cannot stand to see people go through pain inflicted by others. My heart goes out to mayorstef, and I hope she finds peace with herself soon. No one deserves to be treat like that. I thought out of all the fandoms, the animal crossing community would be one with minimal amounts of nastiness and hate. I will immediately unfollow any blogs that show hatefulness towards others or outright voice direct/indirect abuse.
Everyone PLEASE send nice messages to mayorstef! She's really struggling with so much anon hate an I'm really worried she's going to do something terrible TT_TT please everyone we need to show her how much we love her I'm so worried
We all need to give Mayorstef support right now who's with me?